the risks that i take are all worth is even if it's for a loss

The classic!

AMANDA NICOLE
eighteen
taurus
24 april baby
catholic
guitarist
aikidoka
msn-addict
prone to getting high
CRAZIED
tomboy-er
sms/chat lover
JOKER OF THE YEAR
st. anthony's preschool
chij bukit timah
art club
st. theresa's convent
RED CROSS
acjc(three months)
CANOEING/DBOAT
catholic jc
canningcollege
Shopping fan
curtin university
ROWING
swimming
working to earn a living

looking through the glass

playing on my guitar;D
searching for tabs online
music
OUTDOORS:D
water sports, CANOEING
mountaineering
camping outdoors
orientation camps!
SHOPPING!
ROWING
movieing with friends
being totally ME
smsing/chat
blogging;D
scouting for eyecandies.
Chocolates
running/crunches
reading for leisure
suntanning<3
SUN SAND SEA.

aspirations

conquer mount kinabalu
master drums one day
learn guitar tabs ( currently)
to be a rich woman!
grow taller!
learn how to do makeup
travel around the world backpacker style
get back home to singapore!
do well in up in uni exams
ROWING CHAMPIONSHIPS!
hiphop street dancing
the special coffee blend
do something crazy and wild
get my honours!
work hard in both my jobs
throw the old, get the new
be the next AUSTRALIAN IDOL

fingers crossed

crumpler bag
rowing championships medals
more eyecandies!
to dye my hair brown/red
my food hunt
workout dumbells
GET AN AWESOME TATTOO
another piercing to go with
new balance dryfit apparel
nike running dryfit tee
splurging on sunglasses
COME BACK HOME!
lesser projects/schoolwork
another jar of jellybeans!
retain my 46kg
running machine
doritos nachos
cadbury icrecream tubs
up my fitness level
to get my HOT abs
to able to carry a scull by myself
get tanner under the sun!

tagboard

friends

♥Aileen ♥BaoZhu ♥Charmaine ♥Caroyln K ♥Chris ♥Dorcas ♥Edlyn Ng ♥Honey ♥Jannah ♥Li Zhen ♥Kelly Ann ♥Kelly Low ♥KY ♥Michelle Ng ♥Randy ♥Sharon ♥SiJia ♥Tammy ♥Yi Jing

credits

designer Dancing Sheep
resources + +

Wednesday, April 25, 2007 8:34 PM

25th april 2007
Day twelve.

Got a free holiday today. I appreciate it since I wasn’t feeling in the mood to attend school the next day because of the cold I had and I needed a break from school. I cant cope with all that’s happening around me. the cultural shock, language shock, the studies and school system, basically everything to even the shock of being so far away from home. Dad said to give myself at least 2 months to adjust to life there but im afraid I wont even make 2 months. Its hard. The work pressure is setting in, work set by the teachers, researches to be done and handed up, the expectations of myself keeps going up. I cant take the pressure soon enough. I’ll just suffer from a mental breakdown. If I can make it through 2 months, it’ll be a miracle I thank the Lord for.

Started the morning with chemistry reading. The textbook is twice thicker than your normal O Level chemistry book. Cramped my head with stuff I don’t even know about. My head hurts. 4 whole hours of chemistry. Didn’t have the appetite for lunch either. Started work again after lunch, English (I have an essay to that’s due the next day) its an essay i have to write about the author's view on some valentine's day massacre. spent a good three hours on my paper.

Mum called at half past 2 to check up on me. I cant help it but every time she calls in, I just start tearing hoping very much it wont turn into sobs, because whenever she hears me cry, she tells me to go online instead. So I try to hold them in and just let them out later after she puts down the phone. Every time she calls in, you just want to tell her how you feel but it just turns all into crying because that’s basically how I feel. There’s too much to describe how I feel about everything around. Crying represents everything.

anyway, enough of all that. im going to try to be strong within. this two months ahead may be stormy and the grey skies may hinder me but hey, it's not going to stop me at all. i aimed to pass my TEE exams and i will accomplish that even if i fall a thousand times. im already halfway through my journey. i cant give up on myself now because if i do, i wont have anyone but myself to blame in the future. so cheer up will you?