Friday, October 19, 2007 10:53 PM
i cried for this. silly me. “Remember: To be happy, you either change the world, or you change your thinking. To be realistic, you have to change your thinking to be happy. But me, I will change the world for you.”
“You’re like the North Pole of a magnet bar, and Jacky is also like the North Pole of a magnet bar. There’s no way for both of you to be close together. There’s a force that’ll always push you both apart. This force is called the obstacle, like interest differences, communication problems and etc.“However, if you put a metal bar in between, both you magnets will stick to it. And you’ll be close to each other. That metal bar dissolves the force that pushes both of you away. And that metal bar is what we called love.”
‘I’ve been the happiest man in the world for two times: The first time is when you agreed to marry me, and the second time is when you said you had always loved me throughout our marriage. Because I have loved you all this while as well, but I just didn’t dare to say it.’”
I regretted so many things yet I can nothing now. I should have, yet I did not. Joanna, what I wanted to tell you is that I love you.
Since the day I first talked to you, I told myself that I must not fall in love with you. As we got closer, I continued to tell myself that I did not love you. I held your hand, I cried when you cried, I smiled when you smiled, but still, I told myself: no, I don’t love you.
In love, either I love you, or I don’t. Joanna, I had been thinking. I had been trying not to love you, but the fact remains: I love you. I can try to forget you, I can try not to love you, but still, it boils down to this single sentence: I love you.
If you’re reading this letter, I must be in coma. But I just want to tell you, Joanna, I just want to tell you how much I love you.
Just wait for me if I’m in coma. I’ll be back. Peel an apple for me; I’ll be still having it. This letter will be my motivation to wake up.
Wait for me. Wait for the sunshine. Wait for the clouds to clear. Wait. For. Me.
will you wait for me?
