Saturday, January 19, 2008 9:41 PM
19th january, day one.here we go again.
a few months back, i was here in australia, perth studying hard for my exams to get myself into university course. and now, here i am back again starting my first year of uni in feb. there's something different this time round, it'll be 9 months instead of the 7 that i went through the other time.
i wont say that this trip here was less difficult since i have my mum and younger sister to ease the burden of being alone. it's still the same since my mindset hasn't changed one bit, i worry over the same few things and the worry marks just keep getting longer and more visible.
yes, im growing older. not in the sense of maturity since im still as childish as i am. although, i doubt uni life would change that side of me. it'll be hard to change such a stubborn ass. but yes, im aging fast! the uv sun rays here in perth are going to wrinkle up my skin so much that i'll start looking like my mum. erm no, my grandma.
we did the same old routine once again at the airport before we left. the breakfast with family and relatives, the snapshots of last goodbyes with friends, the collection of red packets from adults to wish you safe trip and the best of all,
hugs and kisses from the ones we love. it proved too much for my mum to take before her departure that she broke down on my dad. for someone i looked up to so greatly for my own needs, she appeared so soft and weak this once. for once when she wasn't strong enough to hold unto herself, i felt myself falling as well. but my dad entrusted ths only eldest of the two going there, me to look after my mum. to watch her fall and to pick her right back up.
i had a tough time the last. she will too but the only thing any of us can help her out with is to make the remaining of her days here in perth enjoyable so that she would be able to cope with the difficulties herself. independence doesn't just come about. it's not something we are born with, it's something we are made of through our actions. i've come a long way myself, taken the same route she has and came out okay. she'll survive.
it's late already here. but the back aches and the dizzy head that im having doesn't seem to be making me forget about home. i still miss it even though i've tried to forget about it and everyone else. a week. i should be able to cope by a week.
life's too boring without you.
