Friday, February 01, 2008 8:57 PM
1st feburary 2008.Day thirteen.
what a great way to celebrate the new month of feburary. we woke up late into the morning and mum even gave up calling us pigs to wake up. and when i thought things were getting for the better,it turned out worst.
the call that was promised to come by the end of the week came. and it was ugly. no wonder they said no news is good news. i wished i hadnt heard it coming from her mouth but i guess rejection over the phone is twice as better than personal rejection. she didnt want me. she didnt want casual or part time. all she wanted was full time and i didnt fit into that category. i was rejected. my first try out at a job, and it just didnt turn out right.
everyone's been telling me to move on since this just ain't the last job you'll ever see. you're bound to move on to better and brighter opportunities in life. i know. but now when everything's started to look glum on me, i just cant seem to harbor that thought. it'll be a wish come true if it happened now.
i shouldnt be too surprised by the sudden rejection. no one wants to hire someone who has no working experience or who just doesnt seem to have people skills ( since i cant seem to catch onto their lingo as yet ) or who is chinese. im not too sure about the differences here but i know it happens to some. i cant say i was the target here but it just seems nudging back at me that it could be a reason.
im glad for the people who loved me and supported me through my first trial. though it didnt turn out quite right. im willing to take my chances on something better.
for my mum, thank you for helping me out on my resume. and thank you for approaching with you to the staff to enquire more on job listings. i needed that extra support and you gave me. like a bird not ready to fly, you taught me how to.
for my boyfriend, who has been there to tell me it's alright even if i dont get a job or who's been worrying so much over the working times im scheduled to, you dont have to worry now since im jobless. at least it takes out the worry lines on your forehead. not till i get myself hurt, then can you start worrying again.
for justin, your jokes were amusing. i had a great time sharing out with you. thanks for being there when i needed you ( right after the phonecall) you turned darkness into lightt with your jokes. HA when i think of it, amusing. now who wouldnt want to hire my best friend? you're right! i didnt lose out on a great opportunity, they lost out on a great leader and staff. i didnt lose. it's only the beginning of a great adventure that im going to take. HA for all the laughter you brought into my life. thanks!
ps: dont even dare call me princess.
i asked mum. she said if i didnt have to come home late. i could broaden out my search to carosel area where the shopping centres are bigger. hell if i dont get a job there, i'll stick to being a kitchen hand at kfc or chicken treat. HAHA. i promised mum i'll treat her to jap food with dad when he comes and i intend to stick to it, i want to be interpendent on earning my keep and keeping to my promises.
it's about time im serious about what i want in life.
