Friday, February 22, 2008 9:49 PM
my blogging times seem pretty erratic these days. i couldnt keep track of the number of days i have been here. i'll just stick to the 9 months wait till im home.
school's about to start soon and i doubt i'll be here and now everyday to blog. i give my promise that i'll be online to chat every other day when the work load ain't so bad. they say school's going to be tough, i hope for the best.
i have a job interview at one of the clothes line stores on tuesday and another upcoming soon at mcdonalds, both at carousel. things are finally starting to light up but for now, i have to consider which one of them would be the best for my studies and life.
schools starting next week and i have to adjust to university life plus there's work and charmaine moving in with us in just one room. after her arrival it'll all amount to 9 people in one house. and this time, grandma and aunty irene are going to hate us even more. yeah right, enough with all the bullshit, you tell us not to move out because it's a total waste of time and money in looking for one but instead you harbour negative feelings about us. you vent it out on your children and we get to hear it from the ugly side of things. you think we wanna hear any of it?
no wonder they said children are meant to be seen but not be heard. she doesnt even care what comments i have in mind and when i do say of any, it just goes to the back of her mind. when i dont, you shout at me and ask me what's my problem. yeah, you dont care one bit. all you ever care is about dad's comments and not ours. so who's going to live in that house? us or dad? if you want dad so badly, go back. i say it, go back mum during the june hols. me and charmaine are all of legal age to take care of ourselves and sharon.
you know what i really think of this whole buying, building and renting houses fiasco? it's pure stupid. you tell me you cant stand cold, if so what about winter? are you really going to return to singapore just during tha season and leave us us? other than that, if every6 months dad needs you to do the accounts, you'll return wont you? if so, whats with buying/building a house? you said dad's coming over after he wraps up his business, but then when's that going to be? migration here? i rather just you and dad. dont drag the whole family here just because of a brighter future you see here.
bright future? mum, everything looks so bleak to me now. so what if i have a job or if school;s starting? you took away so much from me. things that even money cant buy. so what if you can buy me an education here in perth, money cant buy me the heart to learn in this new environment. the only reason i worked so hard last year and this coming few years are because of the hard earned money you and dad have put up for our studies. so what if you can buy me a house,money cant buy me a home with love from my parents and sisters. money can buy the household electrical appliances like a toaster but it cant buy me breakfast made my mum. so what if money can get you affiliates? money cant get me back my friends i have lost touch with.
you have taken so much more than what this future can give me back.
im tired. just leave me alone mum. the more you bother about me, the more we quarrel. our relationship already looks so bleak and all this house fiasco is just making it worse.
