Wednesday, March 05, 2008 10:15 PM
university life is killing me. for once in my life, i feel like i have no goals and i dont know which direction im about to take. the only thing people tell me is that my choice of the major is a good one to last me in the future. a double major? i must be crazy to take one of those. i wish i could do just a single so i wont have to stay back to study another year or so. but for now, i dont even know if i want to take human resource as a major.
i spend my weekends burying my head into books and lecture notes. and every other weekend, its a test or an assignment due. im with my computer and notes almost every min of the day except for the times i bathe, eat or sleep. i gues when had my breaks before i started out, i shouldnt complain too much of free time because now i need one badly.
i sleep less, eat more ( because my appetite increases when i study) and play less ( exercise less). i guess i'll turn out into a workaholic with a fat belly. HAHA
the assignments are due soon and im still on square one. they said dont fret till two weeks before. but i hate the pressure then, so im starting now. but even so, i dont know which direction im taking. im walking/running endlessly without a map. soon enough i'll burnout like a matchstick that has burnt out its last breath of light. my life is like a box of matchsticks and im down to my last one soon if i keep on with this pace.
i feel like pitying myself. crying if it helps. but everyone knows that crying cant help you tide over your life in university. the assignments need completion, the tutorials need working upon and the tutors need to know you understand all that's said in the lectures. 'they' need me and yet i have to run. i dont know if i can keep on running because one day i know victory wont be mine to keep. it's for those who strive hard and survive in the end. in the end, all that matters is i keep in pace and do what i have to do to survive/
i need myself to understand that life is never easy. that fairytale i was hoping to happen wont appear without me completing university. that prince charming waiting on his stead wont love me if i had'nt learnt something beneficial in life.
if this is the road i have to travel, i wont have to worry since everyone else starts off with me. so in all, university life aint so bad is it?
i need a break so badly. when can all of this be over?
