Wednesday, May 28, 2008 10:43 PM
oh no, i hate her.i know im not a very fond person at hating others. i hardly ever do, but she's just exceptional. i mean really, she has to be like the second person i hate, all over a span of two years.
i must be a total bitch for hating her. not really, since jake (the nicest guy on planet) doesnt like her too!dont ask me why, but im not the only one she's driving nuts. she practically driving everyone else nuts. her attitude towards work, the way she carries out her work and even the way she talks to us (to her, we're just mere youngsters who shouldnt get her attention since we're younger than her), they're just some of the reasons why everyone's put off. if youre the typical clean freak, trust me you wldnt like to work with trudy. she leaves the whole place in a mess, pretends to do something else when youre busy with something youre with as well and then takes a customer's order from you, leaving you the dirty job of having to clean up after her. she's a full grown, not to ,mention oversized lady and she expects me to clean up for her because she's just cant be bothered to do so and prefers to serve customers instead.
she is youre little miss-boss-around since all she ever does is to boss you around since she just feels like. the only person who even likes her is carry, the manager. everyone understands the company's structure, if youre on top you get the respect and the other side of the coin if youre below. that's pretty much of the reason since everyone else is a junior.
for the second time in my life, i hated my name. i really detest my name being called out. it was crazy, every few minutes and she just cant cope with the amount of sales just because she stands there chatting with customers and doesnt want to get her hands dirty preparing the food. well, yeah missy, i see you have nice manicures on your fingers. love that but hate you.
i was right. the fact that i didnt get her respect would mean that all i had said to her fell on deaf ears since she didnt even take any notice of it. every single time i ask her to clean an area she leaves it. one incident: she was in my way when i was cleaning the donut robot so she offered to clean it for me since she was in a nice position (sitting) so she could do it easier without me stretching over her entire mass to reach. i left and came back and still she hasnt even started. now that was at least a good 5 minutues. i questioned and she bluntly gave me the excuse that she would when she has left the seat. guess what, she left the position to serve a customer in the next few minutes and totally forgot about the machine after that. thanks a lot.
how unfair would life be when you come face to face with trudy. the only reason why she's still in the job is because she doesnt go to school, has two kids, is not married and living with her partner of which she's the only breadwinner and therefore, would have the time to work as a full time staff. that's mainly the only reason crissy is still keeping her in this job even so everyone else doesnt agree.
she has this dual personality thing going on that really freaks me out. since she can be sooo totally nice when taking customer's orders and really mean when ordering us around. that's not the only good part. we quarreled a couple of times and a few customers saw us doing so. i felt really bad, i mean the whole service experience. we should have took it out somewhere else.
she pisses off everyone except kerrie since she's the only one who understands how a single motehr would feel raising two kids. she even does so for crissy and tracey. they both hate her guts since she told on tracey's departure to a customer which left gossips spreading.
i dont know how anyone can stand her. not even me.
Saturday, May 24, 2008 5:31 PM
for all its worth, 15km. dont ask me why the event is named as the
2008 olympic rowathon. i have never seen myself in the idea of competing in the nationals or even in any global olympics. however, the event was as such named and our teams went for a slow row to raise funds for our club.
normally, trainings are usually just 2.5km that we row with water-based techiques to help us row better and that is if we have nice water. the only mother nature factor that scares us rowers is the wind. small winds arent that bad. its the
strong and violent ones that play us hard. for us, the hot scorching sun and the cold rain are all something we can take control of- caps and jumpers.
rowing 15km was a killer. its sucide. even for normal trainings, the most we do is 2.5km and 15km is really a big jump from that. not to mention that fact that
we rowed non-stop for 15km till we reached the end point of the checkpoint. yes, it was crazy but we all wanted to escape from the rain and the violent winds that were gaining on us as we rowed.
even in singapore, the
most i've paddled was 12km in canoeing. not to mention, the number of times i treated myself to some of mac's waters because i was so thirsty and also considering the
number of breaks i gave myself because i didnt have anyone pushing me. now, that 12km was comprised of 6km front and back. this rowathon was a straight route all the way till the finish line.
the scenery was exceptional. it was so serene and beautiful. never before, have i seen such peaceful and delicate countryside houses.
it was spectacular. we saw a miniature waterfall by the side of a jetty and farmstays with grazing pens.
now, that 15km of scenery.
now, the advantage of rowing in a quad also has its disadvantage on the flip side of a coin and that is slackers like me.
15km was a long way to go and i was getting restless 3/4 of the way to the finishing point. rowing is beautiful because all it requires is the same set of movements. stretch out, square the blades- chop into the water and pull with the slide, feather back. thats about it all.
unlike any other sport like has a game plan or any winning strategy, rowing doesnt have any. all it has are a bunch of motivated people with their eyes set upon the finishing line. nothing more, nothing less. thats the beauty. its boring you know. the same set of movements every stroke. i couldnt help it but dozed off a couple of times. i was glad that my oars did not collide with any others. now, i said a few. thats all.
i woke up right after that. once we reached the finishing point, we started comparing the amount of blisters we had on our hands. gosh, galatee's ones were bad. she was in the stroke seat meaning the front of the boat and me the bow, the back of the boat.
i had very bad blisters myself and my kneecaps were shaking hard from all the sliding we had to do while rowing on a slide.
angeline went gaga over this guy in our club. she claimed that he was also in the same school as her and she was so glad that they were in the same club, my gosh, i have never seen a girl so crazy over a guy and trust me, he isnt even hot for my taste. i mean,
even i wldnt go gaga over any guy except for my babe of course.
i must say all that rowing did really make us all hungry and
crazy over food. it was weird but 3/4 of the journey, the same time i was dozing off, i smelt like mcdonalds hashbrown. ooo it smelt so real and good. i think i was hallucinating then but woke up immediately when i have splash water at.
after the row, there was a sausage sizzle and me and galatee took a bite out of 2 sausages in a bun each. haha! im a good influence when it comes to food- she took the idea of 2 sausages pretty well and funny though, i got commented on my sauce decorating skills on a hot dog. how weird is that comment? thank you donut king for the countless number of times i had to make hotdogs for customers. haha!
you taught me well in that skill. how weird.
oh, did i tell you guys that for competition purposes, we have to wear this cool wet suit for rowing purposes. how cool is that? yeah but the price is still reasonable, 30 dollars for a wetsuit sounds pretty okay now that im working.
im hoping to get the pictures off angeline for todays rowathon.
i learnt one thing from today's rowathon and that is
if you want something, strive for it!if you dreamt of it, achieve it. and in all,
if you believe in it, ,make it real!know it, want it, seek it, strive it, achieve it!
oh gosh, I LOVE ROWING.
cheers, team mates, you did well in today's rowathon and im looking forward to the medals we're going to achieve in next weeks tournament. GO TEAM CURTIN!
Thursday, May 22, 2008 10:44 PM
i have to learn now or never!i know i have caused everyone here to worry about whether i'll be home by the sunset or if i would be early for training or even arrive for work on time. i know i have asked many favours from all of you to fetch me because i was the only eighteen-year-old girl that hasnt learnt driving because she is just so full of herself that she wouldnt even bother about the petrol you've wasted on picking me up. she's just so obsessed in life; working hard to earn for her living and studying to be the best for her parents that she just wouldnt find any time to spare a thought.
im sorry guys. i know i have caused enough trouble, asking for a ride every now and then just because i didnt have transport early in the mornings. well, for once, im going to set things straight. i am going to learn driving and i should be able to pass by this year or even august if i get my exam schedule on time.
i know the cost of a car would be expensive and no doubt, i would have to pay for my own petrol bills, car maintenance fees and even the car. well, mum already stated it clearly, i have to pay everything that is not related to school. rowing likewise came from my own pocket, my first paycheck and it felt really bad. likewise for a car, it'll come from my own pocket, i wont say how much i have with me now, but it should be enough to buy a 1998 car with a few savings leftover to sustain the rising petrol costs.
i was reluctant driving at first, the fees and costs of examinations and driving lessons. i cant even afford rowing now, what more driving and even more so the petrol costs to keep up with? im no superwoman. i have a life and that is to study hard so as to earn a better income in the future, not pushing myself so hard like some buffalo on the plough fields with small returns so that i could sustain my hunger just a little more so before dinner is due.
my life is going to change and i am aware of it. i know i would have to work double jobs if i needed the extra cash to help me keep with with my bills. im a adult now. an eighteen-year-old and mum holds me in high regard to support myself. i know i can do it but at the expense of my studies?
i dont know how much longer i can keep up with this. im losing my momentum in life. the clock would eventually stop ticking when the batteries run out and so would i.
one day, i would just be a hopeless, just-for-nothing that i had achieved to be.
a nobody.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008 9:19 PM
work is driving me nuts!friday is almost here and tracey's leaving this job for her own good, now ours. everyone that's coming into to fill up the work position is just not good enough to fill her position. tracey's just so nice and everyone else i know just treats customers as though they are customers. to them, work is just earning money for the business and doing just what the company's protocol tells them to do- serving customers because its a service business.
i dont know, but i just dont feel the same way about my job, my job in serving customers. well, i totally feel that both of us want something, they our products and us their money. but that goes beyond just wanting something in exchange for another right? i mean, i feel that a simple greeting and cheery smile would go a long way into making the best sevice experience any person would want.
other than serving customers, i feel there's this need to communicate about them, us or either way. i mean, like my customers who approach me, well, we usually have short conservations not just lasting the time of which i serve them but it lasts till the next visit i see them again.
well, this security man that i know always orders the same meal. we usually have a good old chat while i prepare his meal. like, he tells me about whats happening recently in his life from being dicthed on a dinner date to a leg injury causing him leave from work for a week. he's happy with the service and the extra bit of chat. i mean it adds onto my work experience.
i love my customers but others in the same service business as me just dont seem to see it my way. to them, serving a customer ends the minute they walk off with their service experience. others feel earning a profit at the end of the day makes working worthwhile but i see it in a different way. i feel, at the end of the day, its serving the customers that makes your day, or night.
i usually get small heart seizures when i see wasted food in the bin after a day's sale. we cant give it away since its bad marketing strategy. i wouldnt want my business in the drops because of all the free giving food. i hate to see food being dumped into the bin after the end of the day because nobody wants to pay for donuts at the end of the day.
my day's been a mess. work was a total fix for me and i cldnt deal with the stress so much that i broke down outside of the shop. brad was in a total mess. he was sick and he came to work. i had to deal with his emotional feelings while tracey was on her lunch. he gave me the excuse that he hates cleaning so i ended up with the work load of having to clean all the cupboards by myself while he serves customers. while tracey had her lunch, it was just me and him in the shop.
now this was when things got bad. he got so frustrated with work that he vented out his feelings on both myself and the customers. what? no coffees and teas for a whole half an hour till tracey is back just because youre too sick to carry on just making some cups of coffee? i did all the other work from running across the shop to taking things for the customers and all you do is stand on yoru spot, making coffees. you should see his face when he yelled at me to close the machine down because he couldnt take the stress. he was almost in tears.
so i thought since i've learnt a lil on making coffees, i could help him out on some coffees. i was wrong. it was shit. i didnt know how to use my theory and apply it onto practical. i guess i asked too many questions that brad was pissed off. i guess he's right. i would if i was sick i guess. the one question i asked and am still doubtful over his answer was over if i should pour water into coffee. he got so frustrated that he blew up at me and thats when i walked off minding my own business. well, i served other customers, stayed a distance from him and limit the amount of talking we had to do. he's shit when hes sick. but why take it upon the customers?
damm i dont understand this service business thing.
god help me!
Tuesday, May 20, 2008 10:09 PM
Tracey's leaving?this is bad news. why her and not someone else? why my boss is not one of the other collegues i dislike working with? everyone's a little upset at the shop these few days since she was leaving by friday. everyone except one girl, everyone except trudy.
now, the funny thing is, everyone thinks im the nice girl. everyone thinks that i never get angry and pissed off at someone else even if i was. well, yeah i am pissed off with trudy and no one else in the whole shop likes working with her, no one including mr nice jake. now, everyone perceives jake to be the nice friendly guy. jake doesnt like working with trudy either, it was so bad that he kpet finding excuses to help out in the foodcourt end rather than at trudy's end.
things have been so bad that the two shops have been divided into two workforce. everyone against trudy is at the foodcourt end ( the bigger shop) while only kerrie and trudy are in the other. this is the result of a policy passed by boss' boss, crissy. that policy was that no one is to work at the oher end if trudy was around other than kerrie. this would help minimise tension.
brad's going to quit his job since tracey is leaving. he wouldnt carry on if he couldnt get along well with the new manager. well, he's not the only stupid one doing so, everyone else is having the same thoughts about leaving if the other leaves as well since working together wouldnt be the same anymore.
there's nothing to spur me to go for work anymore other than the money involved. brad wont be there if he leaves as a result of tracey's dismissal and if anyone else does so, i dont know if i can even carry on either.
i have competions each week till june and maybe more after that. this saturday would be the rowing fundraiser and the week after next, my first competitive rowing and so would be june 21st. i have to start running everyday to get my medal!
i'll see you guys again. cheers; D
Sunday, May 18, 2008 8:17 PM
Assignments long gone!i know its pretty stupid to say this, but i miss having assignments. i dont know either, it just keeps me on my toes, ya'know. i mean all the rushing to finish it so as to submit it by the very next day, chasing group members to do their fair share of load and the late nights munching on donuts to keep myself awake.
if i had a choice between examinations and assignments. i rather group assignments (that is if i get good ones) to sitting for an exam. well, at least the strain on my brain only days for those days leading to a assignment instead of worrying everyday on the major examinations.
i spent the whole of sunday, lazing around, watching the telly and eating loads of junk food. this is the very reason why i need work to keep myself busy. i have to cut down on the laziness and the intake of sinful food into my system. i just want one sunday to laze about. next sunday, no more lazing about, i have to start studying.
well, i guess for all that hard work put into my assignments, it was a good rest i had today after a tough but fufilling training at salter's point. we went out into a quad again. i guess we kinda' stuck to our seating arrangments. im in the stroke seat meaning, the back of the boat, number 3. in other words, since rowing is backwards, the back of the boat which you know becomes the front of it. so im 3rd from front, or 2nd from back.
we've been training hard for the 11km that we're going to do for the fundraiser event on 24th may, which is just next week. but today's training paid off. it was great! we did more than a few hard strokes which really left me breathless but there was so much power and drive in each stroke. however, it was a great effort knowing that we rowed for 2.5km out away from the boat club. the week after next, i would officially have my first competition. we're hoping that the team would come together then;D
oh, did i mention, i love the money flowing into my bank account. you can never imagine how much shopping around i have done already and..., yes, its all for the things i need, i never overspend, well not always. hehe;D i bought myself a pair of gloves for training equipment and im investing into a good dry fit training apparel and cap. the next move im going to take is buying a running machine. i need that for the winter seasons if i still plan to maintain my figure and stamina for races;D
i'll blog soon again.
i love you guys! hugs and kisses;D
Friday, May 16, 2008 11:01 PM
my body ain't keeping up with my study and work schedule. it has failed me in the past last week and it just keeps getting worse these days.
if its not school that i have to attend, its work in order to earn myself a living and even if it ain't both of them, its training hard to win the team and myself a gold medal at the state competitions. i train my mind to consider the possibilities of striving to be a better person for others, to take some pressure off my dad on my living expenses, to earn myself a graduate degree and to make other proud of what i have become.
my body has to take on the toll of which, i have placed heavy responsibilities upon these fragile shoulders support. i dont know how much longer i can go on, making everyone else happy at the expense of my health.
my health is detoriating. the late nights spent on studying and rushing for assignments hav'nt done much good to my health. every few morning feels like a pain to get out of bed. it is on those few mornings that i feel the whole weight of the world is borne by my shoulders alone. the pressure to hold on is straining on my health- i have bills to pay, meals to eat, school to go to and training to attend.
i need a break but this would mean i'll be losing out on paychecks that would be needed to cover up for my expenses at school. the june break is not far away.
i pray for this nightmare to relieve itself. i pray that anyone who would become 18 this year would not fall into the same pit i have landed myself into, i pray that GOD would save me from falling.
i pray that my body would hold on for the sake of my life.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008 7:49 PM
hey guys, i am so really sorry that i hav'nt blogged in ages. i cant even remember when and on the day itself when i should have went to blog, i didnt. my 18th birthday. im cant say how surprised i have been to see your posts up on my tag blog wishing me a happy birthday, and yet i was'nt blogging, yet alone online- i was rushing for assignments on my birthday.
yes, it was sad. my 18th birthday spent on group meetings, work and buying a television. yeah i was weird. everyone's birthday present was a television bought on my birthday, dinner was mud cake and just a small celebration. it was small and yet cosy. i couldnt have imagined better with clubbing or drinking though, im hoping to do so soon when im back home in singapore.
cheers to being 18.
yet on the other side of being 18, there comes responsibility. great responsibility rested upon you by your parents for being able to support yourself. i cldnt have imagined myself in such a spot either till i got myself a job. i had the wrong mindset when i landed myself a job. i got so desperate to find myself a job, to earn a little extra pocket cash to support my shopping needs. i wldnt say my job was terrible, it's really good. i loved it just not the responsibility of supporting myself through university.
it was devastating the night when i had a quarrel with mum over what i should finance myself through. the quarrel went so bad till the point that i had to leave the conversation. it boiled down to the fact that i had to pay for everything except school fees. it was terrible. i took the whole week after that hard. my meals went from a full meal with a drink to just a drink itself. i had to budget myself to just 5 dollars a meal. a simple under 5 would be a large frozen coke which i had to survive on for the whole day till dinner at 6.
the pay was good. in two weeks, i got my pay and it was terribly good. i never felt so happy on my hardwork. yet soon enough, it was all spent on my rowing fees would amounted to 260. mum wldnt pay for that since it was a co-curricular activity which means it had no concern which school.
in other words, anything without any relationship to schooling, it comes from my pocket. i wldnt love being 18 even if i was, yet i consider myself really lucky to have accomodation and food without having to pay for any of them.
however, that night's conversation still stays embedded in my mind. ' help your dad loosen some of the pressure he has to support us now that youre working. i think you should support yourself and help your dad out'.
everyone knows im stubborn and yes i am. i cant help it when you place a dare in front of me, i bite on it like bait hooked on a fishing line. i know im a stupid fish, reeled to death but yet, i want to because of that dare you made. to this mum, i say i will support myself and soon enough i will support myself including next year's schooling fees. i will release some of the tension on dad since he'sthe only one working as for now. to my 18th birthday, this is my wish for you, that i would some day take upon the same burden my dad has upon himself to support all of us.
i will someday find myself another job during the school holiday if time permits or even work during the school examinations to support the family. to my 18th birthday, i will mum, for once be independent.
if i had to forgo shopping and clubbing and even hanging out with friends just to save up on my allowance, i would. but mum, dont ask me to forgo my sport, rowing. other than my family and friends, rowing is like part of me. i need it other than my job. i know i';ve been spending fewer times with you and my sisters but all these activities have been weighing out my time. if i didnt have to work so hard to support you guys some day, i would have stayed behind, say a few more things i should have to which i might most probably not have the chance later.
im sorry mum, i just cant concentrate on so many things at one go. studies, rowing and work. i think i might be graying sooner than i think. even my body says so. i havnt been feeling myself for the past few weeks ever since i've been dealt with fever, sore throat and flu. i havent recovered and im back to work the next day.
to my 18th birthday, i wish that i could change the world.
