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AMANDA NICOLE
eighteen
taurus
24 april baby
catholic
guitarist
aikidoka
msn-addict
prone to getting high
CRAZIED
tomboy-er
sms/chat lover
JOKER OF THE YEAR
st. anthony's preschool
chij bukit timah
art club
st. theresa's convent
RED CROSS
acjc(three months)
CANOEING/DBOAT
catholic jc
canningcollege
Shopping fan
curtin university
ROWING
swimming
working to earn a living



looking through the glass
playing on my guitar;D
searching for tabs online
music
OUTDOORS:D
water sports, CANOEING
mountaineering
camping outdoors
orientation camps!
SHOPPING!
ROWING
movieing with friends
being totally ME
smsing/chat
blogging;D
scouting for eyecandies.
Chocolates
running/crunches
reading for leisure
suntanning<3
SUN SAND SEA.



aspirations
conquer mount kinabalu
master drums one day
learn guitar tabs ( currently)
to be a rich woman!
grow taller!
learn how to do makeup
travel around the world backpacker style
get back home to singapore!
do well in up in uni exams
ROWING CHAMPIONSHIPS!
hiphop street dancing
the special coffee blend
do something crazy and wild
get my honours!
work hard in both my jobs
throw the old, get the new
be the next AUSTRALIAN IDOL



fingers crossed
crumpler bag
rowing championships medals
more eyecandies!
to dye my hair brown/red
my food hunt
workout dumbells
GET AN AWESOME TATTOO
another piercing to go with
new balance dryfit apparel
nike running dryfit tee
splurging on sunglasses
COME BACK HOME!
lesser projects/schoolwork
another jar of jellybeans!
retain my 46kg
running machine
doritos nachos
cadbury icrecream tubs
up my fitness level
to get my HOT abs
to able to carry a scull by myself
get tanner under the sun!



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Wednesday, May 14, 2008   7:49 PM

hey guys, i am so really sorry that i hav'nt blogged in ages. i cant even remember when and on the day itself when i should have went to blog, i didnt. my 18th birthday. im cant say how surprised i have been to see your posts up on my tag blog wishing me a happy birthday, and yet i was'nt blogging, yet alone online- i was rushing for assignments on my birthday.

yes, it was sad. my 18th birthday spent on group meetings, work and buying a television. yeah i was weird. everyone's birthday present was a television bought on my birthday, dinner was mud cake and just a small celebration. it was small and yet cosy. i couldnt have imagined better with clubbing or drinking though, im hoping to do so soon when im back home in singapore.

cheers to being 18.

yet on the other side of being 18, there comes responsibility. great responsibility rested upon you by your parents for being able to support yourself. i cldnt have imagined myself in such a spot either till i got myself a job. i had the wrong mindset when i landed myself a job. i got so desperate to find myself a job, to earn a little extra pocket cash to support my shopping needs. i wldnt say my job was terrible, it's really good. i loved it just not the responsibility of supporting myself through university.

it was devastating the night when i had a quarrel with mum over what i should finance myself through. the quarrel went so bad till the point that i had to leave the conversation. it boiled down to the fact that i had to pay for everything except school fees. it was terrible. i took the whole week after that hard. my meals went from a full meal with a drink to just a drink itself. i had to budget myself to just 5 dollars a meal. a simple under 5 would be a large frozen coke which i had to survive on for the whole day till dinner at 6.

the pay was good. in two weeks, i got my pay and it was terribly good. i never felt so happy on my hardwork. yet soon enough, it was all spent on my rowing fees would amounted to 260. mum wldnt pay for that since it was a co-curricular activity which means it had no concern which school.

in other words, anything without any relationship to schooling, it comes from my pocket. i wldnt love being 18 even if i was, yet i consider myself really lucky to have accomodation and food without having to pay for any of them.

however, that night's conversation still stays embedded in my mind. ' help your dad loosen some of the pressure he has to support us now that youre working. i think you should support yourself and help your dad out'.

everyone knows im stubborn and yes i am. i cant help it when you place a dare in front of me, i bite on it like bait hooked on a fishing line. i know im a stupid fish, reeled to death but yet, i want to because of that dare you made. to this mum, i say i will support myself and soon enough i will support myself including next year's schooling fees. i will release some of the tension on dad since he'sthe only one working as for now. to my 18th birthday, this is my wish for you, that i would some day take upon the same burden my dad has upon himself to support all of us.

i will someday find myself another job during the school holiday if time permits or even work during the school examinations to support the family. to my 18th birthday, i will mum, for once be independent.

if i had to forgo shopping and clubbing and even hanging out with friends just to save up on my allowance, i would. but mum, dont ask me to forgo my sport, rowing. other than my family and friends, rowing is like part of me. i need it other than my job. i know i';ve been spending fewer times with you and my sisters but all these activities have been weighing out my time. if i didnt have to work so hard to support you guys some day, i would have stayed behind, say a few more things i should have to which i might most probably not have the chance later.

im sorry mum, i just cant concentrate on so many things at one go. studies, rowing and work. i think i might be graying sooner than i think. even my body says so. i havnt been feeling myself for the past few weeks ever since i've been dealt with fever, sore throat and flu. i havent recovered and im back to work the next day.

to my 18th birthday, i wish that i could change the world.