Friday, May 16, 2008 11:01 PM
my body ain't keeping up with my study and work schedule. it has failed me in the past last week and it just keeps getting worse these days.
if its not school that i have to attend, its work in order to earn myself a living and even if it ain't both of them, its training hard to win the team and myself a gold medal at the state competitions. i train my mind to consider the possibilities of striving to be a better person for others, to take some pressure off my dad on my living expenses, to earn myself a graduate degree and to make other proud of what i have become.
my body has to take on the toll of which, i have placed heavy responsibilities upon these fragile shoulders support. i dont know how much longer i can go on, making everyone else happy at the expense of my health.
my health is detoriating. the late nights spent on studying and rushing for assignments hav'nt done much good to my health. every few morning feels like a pain to get out of bed. it is on those few mornings that i feel the whole weight of the world is borne by my shoulders alone. the pressure to hold on is straining on my health- i have bills to pay, meals to eat, school to go to and training to attend.
i need a break but this would mean i'll be losing out on paychecks that would be needed to cover up for my expenses at school. the june break is not far away.
i pray for this nightmare to relieve itself. i pray that anyone who would become 18 this year would not fall into the same pit i have landed myself into, i pray that GOD would save me from falling.
i pray that my body would hold on for the sake of my life.
