Wednesday, June 04, 2008 10:54 PM
work would never be the same anymore;(everything's just changed, ever since you guys left. the anticipation for work just seems to have dissipated into thin air. i dont even know why im even still in the job. i mean, if its not for the customers that i love, i would be running out of that store in this very minute. i dont even know what seems to be driving me to continue with work without you guys around.
i was that kid, the one who was always begging mum for a little more icecream. i used to love my job and now i dont. i mean, this is just not the way that i had been expecting to feel for my job. i always had the passion to serve others, to provide a little extra service to make any person's day or even go the extra mile for them, but yet now,
i just dont feel the same, not with them.
i used to look forward to working because i had friends. i had friends who would watch my back and help me out with my orders when i get hand-tied. i had friends who would ask me about my life, friends who would do stupid things like (hiding in the smallest cupboard or to snacking during duty corners in the so called
'amanda's lil corner'). but with them gone, its just not the same.
but looking forward to work with the kind of people im currently working with, sometimes just puts me off. it is double the amount of workload that i have to put on my shoulders when they're around. i gues alyssa wouldnt find it surprising but yes, i love to bitch,just like any other girl who loves it. for a small shop, there's a lot of politics floating around. the amount of gossip that force themselves into my ears have made me, once the angel-now the devil.
i never wanted to be caught in the middle of this politcal battlefield. sometimes, even my conscience bites hard when i participate in it as well. when i knew i should have been the one to stop it all, i just mess things up. look where it has brought us to. a bunch of colleagues who cant work together. or in my store sense, its just the three of us against the store manager.
yes, i know its just wrong, ganging up against your manager. but hey, if she's the bitch and you have almost everyone else on your side, you cant say youre in the wrong. she just is the way she is. with her, work is dreadful because she makes it so. if you picture it,
she's the lil devil in the red costume with the forkstand and trust me, that fork does prick hard.
just for this night,
i'll be the world's most hated bitch; D
this are a list of things i have come up with on why i hate my store manager so much. she:
- takes as many breaks as she declares (oh hail the queen --eww)
- hates it when you order her around since she's the MANAGER and so gives you the frustrated look when you ask for service--> ooo i forgot you're too busy, YOU'RE MANAGER.
- still dares to ask for a coffee when clearly, i was busy with a customer's order
- is a total bitch when she orders you around because she cant be bother to take orders herself
- pretends she's busy with managerial paperwork while we're busy in the front since she is still able to chat on the phone with family.
- doesnt bother to help out since she declines to help you out with any tasks when you ask
- loves faking that she's just new--and gives all sort of excuses as to not being to take an order
- is manager but that doesnt mean she could have long breaks without helping out and she's nice enough to give herself those hours, which she didnt work out for
- looks scary with her crooked smile. i know this sounds mean-- she looks like the peguinn guy with the crooked smile in batman one. i prefer if she didnt smile.
and lastly, No. 10. this is my favourite.
she tells all of us that she doesnt care a damm if we cant work with another person. she doesnt care if we cant get along as long as that person is in duty and in charge, we have no choice but to abide to their rules. she claims that we're just for the pay and if we wanted to keep our jobs, it's best we stick on since we're only most probably going to see that person for only workshifts. well said, if it came someone i trusted not you.
her daughter works with us as well and by far as i have heard from mother daughter r/s, they have issues. strong issues that havent been solved--leading to much regretted tension in the work if the two of them were put together. well, if she had meant what she said, they her daughter would not need to have been in slot for the other shop just because of family tension.
i reckon, anyone who takes the managerial position should be able to set aside work and family. even for anyone who is working, that is. if it was really that hard between her daughter and her and she had to sent her to the other shop, what does it say about the first rule that she said? doesnt if reflect badly on her? i suppose it only looks good in her colour.
i miss the good guys. i have been playing with the bad guys for all too long. i cant even remember if i was ever good to start with. for once again, i want to love my job, not to force myself out of bed early just to drag my feet to work for the pay. i want to serve customers and meet new colleagues and to work with them, meet new friends and love them. especially love them not hate them.
i dont want to be the bitch that im turning out to be.
f.ck
