Wednesday, July 16, 2008 9:43 PM
recovering from the fall. training was really hard for me. we did ergo instead of on-water training because of the strong winds. it was bad. having had rest at home and avoiding all kinds of exercise, i have lost all the stamina i have built over the past few weeks.
whilst i could do a 10 min row- 2.5km, i could only manage a 1km, 5.5 min today. my heart couldnt take the heat, and i was out of breath almost by the 2nd minute. we had to do our own individual training because i couldnt keep up with galatee's training-20 minutes!!
im really exhausted today. i had to go to work, kerrie already blew up at me yesterday when i didnt turn up for work. she said i didnt have a good enough reason to skip work, when im due to come in, in less than an hour. she was really in a bad mood when i lost my cool as well. i dropped my bags, took off my uniform and jumped back to bed- without a care for her.
i didnt feel so good after breakfast. i felt fainting spells and unsteadiness took me unguarded. while i was doing my morning routines, i felt it already. i thought i would feel a little better after a little food in my system, but it didnt help much.
work was dreadful. i had to get a hold of myself a couple of times when i dazed out. i wanted to leave early but no one would tend the shop with carlene. i didnt have lunch. lunch wasnt something i had at my will. it would have to be after my shift, since the hours i work are between the morning and lunch shift- busiest times. i had to take awake on the sugar dose from 3 donuts.
i hate being so stubborn.
i need to get well for the race next sat,
but with my stamina this low?
my body this weak,
im not sure if i can even stand up
to see the end.
