Sunday, August 17, 2008 7:02 PM
what have i been doing the last couple of weeks? running around.
yes, i've been up on my toes for the past few weeks. im so sorry, i havent found the time to blog, if its the day- im always out for work, if not at school and training, andif its at night, it's the truckload of assignments piling up on my guitar. (i dont actually have a desk just a small table which is big enough only for my computer)
it's not that easy juggling two jobs and school. but i dont have much of a choice do i? i just cant seem to say no to either bosses, even if my assignments at stake. i guess thats the reason why i got told off last monday by subway. i wasnt aware of my work schedule and when i asked to take a break to concentrate on my assignment- it was harder than i thought to get leave.
anyway, that was past. she didnt have much of a choice and gary was happy to do my shift, so in the end it was one day off my work schedule. that could do if i didnt have monday, tuesday and saturday at work as well, not to mention school on wednesday and friday as well.
im shit.
i know im foolish for taking on all of this pressure. i know im going to break down someday, somehow i would, but then, i cant seem to give up. i love the adrenaline. i like the fact that im always out of the house- running around. i may be stubborn, but am i stubborn for the right things?
did i set my priorities right? is everything going the way i wanted it to be? is life rolling out the way it should have been or am i just trying to rush through life? have i neglected the ones who love me in my run against time to please others? have i forgotten how it is to be loved and to be taken care of instead of caring for others? have i forgotten what life's about?
i came out fine in semester one. i managed but then again, i didnt have 2 jobs. i dont know if i'll be so lucky this time round.
