the risks that i take are all worth is even if it's for a loss

four periods of maths.

Wednesday, May 31, 2006 7:43 PM

im going crazy over 4 whole periods of maths. think of the amount of damage it had done. i stsruggled through the first part with integration. crapp. cant we just leant differentiation and not the reserve too. im also not gonna be an engineer. dammit. after the torture. my pts and me went to cine to watch DA vinci code. finally i got to see it. and crapp. the person didnt even check our id. so which means the other time we could have snugged in. window shopped at heeren. bought hairbands for sis. pink and orange.
didnt lunched. we were broke.
funny incident: a couple was walking towards our direction when veena and me split. conversation>>
the woman/ yesterday was my birthday and you didnt know.
(after walking past them)
me/ oh really. cool. well happy birthday then.
pts/ hahahahahah. (she just laughed)
later on. went home with sharon. kelly ann. and dorcas. super stupid. they chased me from one end of the station to the other end. we crapped on the journey home. kelly ann. MY FARTY ASS. SMELLY ASS. the fact that the toilets smell perfumed on the 2nd floor and the spray in your bag tells all.and especially dedicated to you. the girl who cant kiss the dumbmie correctly. i bet the lips are just there. below the nose above the chin. loser. hahaha. dumb dumber and you still the dumberer. thats kelly.
crapp. i just found The Omen is only PG. not that i needed my parents to be there for guidance. but then if america screened the show as R21 then i think spore definately cut off some gory scenes. if not our rating would also be R21. we more conservative sia.

you've got TAGGED.

7:14 PM

sj./ hahah. true. you would be near my comp instead. well it wasnt that all scary. you will scream mehh. lizhen did. super loud and high pitch. just the sudden burst out. other than those. not the ghoul types. i recommend Shutter. thai movie. super freaky. and i cldnt sleep or bathe after watching it.
lizhen./ heyy girl. you screamed my whole flat down. so high pitched and unexpected. and it was even scary that part. ha. thou shall not sit beside you in such movies. i'll be deaf.
NURUL./ ha. yeaa. ive got the sudden addiction for scary movies. not sure but i didnt its super fun to get your adrenaline pumped up. unexpected too. i wanna watch The Omen 6/6/06.
ebikko-erns./ the next movie marathon we shall have comedy.romance.japanese animae.or cartoons. pick a date. your head. as if i'll buy more cushions for you to tear. hugg the person on your left like me. heheh. you scared of watching SHUTTER. i thought you had sisters to watch it with you. im spooked out when i last watched it. i couldnt slp cans. bathe also dont dare. wahahaha. but yeaa sure. when you wanna watch it. call the rest. we'll scream together. no dont have scary movie 4. look into your mirror and comb our hair. super funny i laughed at that part. hahahahah;)))

scary movie marathon.

Tuesday, May 30, 2006 5:17 PM

went to school. jo phang's english lesson. daydreamed for two whole boring hours. pooh bear was in school this morining. saw her when i visited my locker. later in the afternoon. movied at my place.
scary movie marathon. with lemon/lizhen/audreyy/yongern. watched three movies.
The Others. the twist of events creeped us out. i didnt thought that nicole kidman and her children were dead instead of the other side. we screamed at the unexpected parts. super scary. i heard audreyy and lizhen scream even before the part came out. Ghostwatcher. the idiot boyfriend had to posess and kill. like having his soul back into his own body would keep him in there. Scary Movie 3. not scary. super funny. we laughed the whole time. The Ring part was super corrupted. pamela andeson ___ was wrong.
the sofa had only two pillows and we were fighting over to get it. me and drey hid behind the pillows. it was a good thing i didnt have to grab anything during the scary parts. boo!

hahah. i creeped myself out from my junior's call. i thought what was it. and when my aunty brought the phone close to my ear. i freaked out.

chinese o's was unexpected.

Monday, May 29, 2006 6:50 PM

sat through a grueling half day for my chinese o's. its terrible enough to sit for a paper you know you cant ace at. and yet being unable to do much to prepare. i was super efficient for the weekend. watched spore idol. blogged. went out. today's paper was easy to read. i managed to read a foreign script. so proud of myself. i think even if you place me in india now. i'll survive somehow. heheh. i didnt see pooh bear today. she sat in front i guess. sad.
after the papers. movied at cine. poseidon. ohhh. the show is freaking nice. went with drey. my lil angel and yi lin. super impromtu decision after we lunched at tiong BK.
i love my dreyy. she's so nice to let me grab her hand during the movie during those scary parts. i see dead people floating bout' her hand was super red and hot. hahah.
i think those who watch scary movies with me will have to bear with me snuggling beside and also the hand-squeezing part. hahah.

you've got TAGGED.

6:31 PM

honeyy./ the next time. we'll break our record of 4.30AM. i miss your talks and gossips all too soon. i love gossips and love to gossip too. hehehh. i bet i still love my 'favourite topic' out of all those 'things'. wanna hear from you again.honeyy.
yi jing./ thanks girl. the papers were like a foreign document. i was lost all too well in the sophisticated words. chinese o's are over.
dorcas./ hahah. i got sound dead over the phone mehh like when? thanks chinese is over.
jannah./ i love you too girl. wanna meet up with you soon for the meetings. i miss your laughter and face. i totally love your blogskin. its lime green. ahhhhh. such a funky colour for such a funky girl. rock on.

the day before tomorrow.

Sunday, May 28, 2006 7:06 PM

sunday. went to church 12.30PM mass. raining. super wet and cold. mass was full of giggles. couldnt stop laughing. chris made me chase after him during homily. super smart cans. he made a dash for the altar when i wasnt looking. after mass. chris made father joseph laugh with hs usual stunt of blessing himself and people with rainwater. potential priest in the family.
lunched at bukit timah plaza. had some goldfish/beta exhibition. sharon and i were critisizing some of the fishes. looked damm scary with the bubbled eye. heard my other cousin is leaving for adelaine soon in july. why must everyone migrate there. im not even spared. but i'll be shiped maybe to perth for jc studies. i was super childish today playing with ben. played scissors paper stone heart attack.
the very next day. its chinese o's. they said i should let pooh bear know. something tells me i shouldnt open my mouth to tell her at all. just graduate. and bye bye. im afraid. tomorrow. i'll see her.

4.30AM

6:41 PM

Fourthirty in the morning. 4.30AM. we had to hang up. we said our goodbyes. and hunged up. unexpectedly. she still sent me an sms. i miss her gossips and her talks. hooked up at 1240AM but is seems all too fast. i love my favourite topic. scared ourselves with ghost stories till i couldnt sleep. taking a leak in the toilet was scary enough. i kept looking inside the bowl. the curtains drawn. room pitch black. soundless. except for my breath in the phone. i freaked out. got caught my mom woke up at 3.48AM with a basket of clothes in one hand. stood at the door. asked me to sleep.i think she sleptwalk. remind me. im supposed to tell you on the freaky doll incident and maybe a couple more the next i see you. i want to chat with you again.

happy birthday moka.

Friday, May 26, 2006 7:59 PM

my hubby moka. happy 16th birthday. i tell you. 16 is such a great year to be in. the movie selection is totally great. esp. when you have DA VINCI. hahah. have a blessed and funn birthday. im nice today. so i massaged you if not. i do charge kkae. hehh.
and not to mention the birthday girl wanted to strangle me for some joke i told her. ure not ugly. trust me. I THINK. hahahh. once again. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOKA.
OMG. once again. i saw her. although it was classroom todayy and i didnt get to see her at the hardcourt area. but i saw her at outside her classroom. and i was lucky enough to see her at the hardcourt area during recess. its stupid enough that many say that i blush when i see pooh bear. but i swear i dont blush. cos given my brown tan. its hard to see the red streaks. just the fact that i have high cheek bones.;))

and she looks nice today. <3

tionged. for lunch.

7:32 PM

met up concidentally after school with dorcas. went tiong cos i had to rush off early for aikido at night. lunched at Grillers. picture the two of us. without much to spend on. i was broke with $2 with me only. she had $14. we spent like ten minutes sorting out the money. so that we wont have to wash the dishes later.
our initial plan of eating at sake. was ruined. what. i can only afford 1 colour plate at $1.95 while she can only afford like 7 coloured plates. truely bankrupted. at sake. saw gao ya and cheryl. we saw my LEMON at thai express. crapp. a lot too.

scene one. 10% GST. hahah. i laughed till i fell down. LEMON saw everything super funny. was supposed to be 5% only. i think the government would love me if i raised the charge fee. but i'll face the wrath of the sporeans.

scene two. dorcas said she cant take prawns and chilli. so we were looking all so retarded going down the list of thai food that didnt have prawns or chilli.

me: heyy dorc. why not take the omelette with rice lahh.

dorc: hahahah. manda. see the word here. PRAWN! wahh. and it was printed in bold.

truely i think im blind.

after lunch. we window-shopp. saw my other juniors there. amanda and co. with kelly ann. saw my sonn too. at think tank. super weird then.

macs later with ginni kel dorc me and wileen. great. i look like a 6 grader and dorc a 4th grader. childish./ nahh. its called childlike. we're YOUNG.

LATER. went home with kel.

tagg. replies.

7:16 PM

li zhen./ sorry gurl. thats because i hang out most of the time with them. dont worry when i hang out with you. expect loads to write bout yeaa.;))
honeyy./ LOVE YA too! hahaa;) ive missed my late night crapping with you. wanna crapp soon again. LOADS to tell you bout. and loads to laugh bout. CALL ME. hehehh.

I LOVE MY HONEYY.

jiawei./ i totally agree. basketball rocks. trying to learn now. you lehh. maybe i'll play a game with you in the near FUTURE.

audreyy./ im going to read your blogg now as promised. im nice. why dreyy. you scared from all that ghost story telling. i wanna hear that panagal story.

ebikko-erns./ hahah;) crazy gurl. wanna hear more ghost stories. you not enough isit. heyy opps. i haven finished my story on my encounter. will tell you soon. minh phong's stories are way scary. i had goose pimples. and ITS TRUE. spooked!

dorcas./ call me MANDY one more time. ure so dead. i'll strangle you the next round. or i could be super nice and make you pay for the meal. hahah. kel. dont you dare follow either with your DIDI. aggh.

dorcas./ hahah. i was super scared from that movie canns. and really. almost everyone screamed so i tagged along. kel. said it was super loud.and i gripped your hand supertight hahah.

si jia./ you tagged. hahah. im bored.

yi jing./ no wonder. you could not make it. all well. another time. maybe theres other stuff you could do.

I love.my HONEYY.

Friday, May 19, 2006 5:49 PM

HAHAA. it was an impromptu decision. but me and my sis played basketball in the court area outside my house. supposedly a maintanance area but who cares. played in the rain and the ball got soaked to bits.;)) both of us got super dirty from the the dirt that the ball had all over.and i was actually tired and breathless after the game. smirks.
jude's leaving the nesxt day for aussie in the night. i wish him farewell and all the best in his studies. i'll miss my cousin and his crapp. BOO HOO.;((
I LOVE MY HONEYY. we chatted on the phone like super late. till one something cos she had to sleep. opps. all the crapp came out and it was super funn. i've missed my daughter's crapp.
dies. i still have chinese homework. one whole stack. crapp. 10 more days to my deciding fate.

'family' outing.

5:19 PM

eighteen may 2006. a date to be remembered. i had loads of fun with all my juniors. i guess it'll be the last one before i start cramping AGAIN. went plaza sing. with honeyy kelly and dorcas. we movied. when a stranger calls. it was super funny throughout the movie. cos we talked real loud and had people. shh-ing us the whole time. some scenes were so unexpected that the whole theater screamed. i had to grab hold of kel t-shirt while squeezing doc's hand. dorcas on the other hand was crouched into a ball shape. concealing behind her bag while kelly had her legs entangled up hands over her eyes. [movie was super fast. just about some pyscho guy who tracks young women down. and plays the mouse and cat game with them. resulting in death.sad ending. babysitter went crazy over the incident.]
took neoprints . lousy machine cranked up on us. pens not working duhh.
arcaded at plaza and at safra later on. super cool. i had a thing for race cars. heng! didnt so many times fatal accident haha;) me and honeyy were addicted to some music game. that the lady at the counter was shocked to see us as 'regular customers' to change tokens.
bowled at safra later on at four. play only two sets. I WON the first set. and shocking enough. i GOT A STRIKE for the first bowl. sui canns. must treat them fries and coke. crapp.
kelly won the second set. funny part was that my ball kept going to the longkang. irritating. and it happened for three consecutive times. till i was accused for thinking bout 'someone'.
i swear i didnt.
i shall say this many times over and over again.
I LOVE MY JUNIORS TO BITS. they make that very part of me feel young all over again.

borderline results.

Wednesday, May 17, 2006 8:14 PM

as expected. my languages didnt do that well again. im not a little bit surprised. but yeaa. still managed to pass both. BORDERLINE. just could not let the feeling of regret show on my face. hahahh. wonder how bao zhu actually cried in turn making minh phong cry too .why. too happy. THEIR WEIRD. well. forget it.
i still have many more to worry bout on friday. now i dont even want to look ahead. but its good to look forward to THURSDAY. bowling.lunching.movieing.crapping. with my juniors.
and FRIDAY watching da vinci with my pts and ishan.
arm muscles hurt now from bball prac in the afternoon. oohh. but it was funn. i hope the next session would be soon. getting addicted to this game.
LOVE my pts. crapped with her at the bus stop. whats with our obsession with balls. i hope ____are bigger. great. small big flat.stucked up. ROUND. hahahh.
LOVE my B2. chatted with her in class through a notebook. wrote retarded stuff in it. yeo yeo wont let us talk. if not. its to the front reading the chemistry book. crapp.
i shall be your strawberry honey coated sugar sprinkled chocolate riced pie.

slammed.dunk.

8:01 PM

look. position. shoot.
those were the three words that ive learnt today for my very first bball prac. tried to dribble. but still a failure at it. the ball doesnt want to keep straight. edwin says PRACTICE. yeaa. i'll stay committed to the practice sessions. balled at ngee ann followed by lunching at bukit timah area. the sugarcane drink was woww. BIG and SWEET. balled again at a court near the area. damm. i hate that guy. his face put me off the minute he stepped into court. worse. show off. edwin couldnt stand his sight of him. slammed dunk in his face.
learned a few neat tricks of playing today. played under the void deck who cares a hoot. the ball kept smashing my front. ohhh. it hurts. must train up on arm power.weights? nahh.lazy.
must start to practice skills now. till i can play a game of bball with my brother soon. after dribbling. its shoot. then defence. quick-witted yeaa.i need that move.
edwin. was nice. he lent me his ball for the time being till i get one. not sure if mom agrees to me buying one. forty for a standard.
going to spend my whole weekend practicing. aim: to play a game soon.

chemistry titration.

Tuesday, May 16, 2006 7:52 PM

hahahh.mr yeo. was super funny today. came in as usuel with that blur look across his face. stood under the fan above my table. as usual to cool himslef down. i really cant understand what he does in the morning to perspire so much. his back is covered in water. i mean really. sweat.
sat in his chair. crossed his fingers. and said.

"i want those girls who cant do titration to stay back tomorrow and do again in the chemistry lab

and. those who cant calculate the results to also stay back.

those who cannot record results properly will RUN AROUND the lab and take down the readings of the girls doing titration. his usual smirk. class bursts out laughing.

and I WANT those who cannot even do simple calculations to do a stack of caculation worksheets i'll be printing out.

and cheryl. wheres your report book?"

shucks. hope i dont fall into any of these catageory.dies.

hmmm.im excited about tomorrow. meeting my brother after school for my practice. there goes my lunch sadded. but still real happy bout the game.

my retarded. juniors.

7:21 PM

link link link. hahah. finally i learnt how to do a call conferencing. so smart of me. im so proud of myself. this afternoon was totally retarded. spent my afternoon instead of cramping for chemistry paper to chat with my juniors. nutcase.

>my basketball practice the next day...

doc: play with your ball.

me: okayy that sounds wrong.play my ball.HELP. I DONT HAVE ONE.

>crazy to jump off through the wndow...

me: wahh.i cant stand both of you guys. im sitting at the window facing out. any moment. i'll jump.

kel: wheeee...nui....bish! sponk!

doc:(laughing in the background)

>say that again. both of you consider yourselves dead

kel: DIDI.

doc: mandy ma'am.

kel: mandy madamm.

me: agghh. ure are gonna get it from me on thursday.

>mental hospital's no.

me: help.someone.im talking to a mental person now. anyone knows the hospital's no.

kel: yeaa. its _____(doc's no.)

doc: wait wait still have another line. ______(kel's no.)

kel: doc still in the hosipital cos she's calling from that no. i came out le.

me: oh crapp.

kel and doc: crabs are in the ocean.

basically.because tomorrow is the last paper. i thought i treat myself today with watching of MTV.punkd.videos. and national geographic chnnl. and even blogging now.
great. i learnt that animals were born with one reason. to create the circle of life. meaning___you know what it means. TAZMANIAN DEVILS ARE NICE.

i am. in need of a miracle.

Monday, May 15, 2006 2:03 PM

it'll really be a great miracle if i could pass my physics paper this time round. dies.

everything that i did were all careless mistakes. if i could just get a fiftyfive mark.

i'll be over the moon. i am in need of a miracle now. geography is long gone.

im over and done with the paper. theres no need to touch the text anymore till the next exam. how much longer do i have to count the days to wednesday. im tired of counting.

i guess my L1R5 will be higher then the last. this is not good. now why do i have to even have to be concerned over such things. its the fact that i survive (and still trying to). in a class where marks matters.

now. where has friendship gone these days. ive forgotten. theres this urge to go out with all my friends as much as possible. but it always aint in my favour.the days. the time.

the place. somehow theres this constant reminder back in my mind telling me that i ought to enjoy as much before i hibernate for o levels. im sorry if i cant spend that 'time' with you guys. i really wanted to but i have other commitments. crapp. dont talk bout commitments to me.

its a really BIG wish that i want to get good results for the midyears.

i made a promise i have to keep. and i cant go back on my word. im sorry.

im in need of a prayer now. i just wish that this was all just a dream.

HAHAA.thanks drey. I LOVE YOU<3>

thanks lil angel. for your concern through all my papers. im really lucky to have my lil guardian angel sitting behind me for exams. watching over me. hehehh;))

great. and i thought i only had amanda. beloved. nicole. victorious heart. who knows. i still have another one. and its elf.ish _____.

happy birthday sharon.

Saturday, May 13, 2006 11:24 AM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHARON.;))

haha. thirtheen years of age. and still a growing pain in the ass.

heheh.

slacking in the afternoon with her birthday party and relatives coming over later on.

dies.

whats going to happen to my geog cramping. damm slacked now canns.

sadded have to eat lucnch on my own later after guitar lessons.

hmm.

should i eat fastfood. kopitiam. or just starve. i like the third option.

hehehh.

still as dead as ever. i still have no idea what to get for the 'pig' at home.

great. im screwed.

point taken. i must keep my panda pillow and balloon from my freaky cousins.

WARNING.

end result should you not take my warning.

its shreds of whats left remaining of your stuff.

so now.

its still back to geog cramping on a saturday.

nothings new;( except.

its

SHARON'S BIRTHDAY.;))

hahahh.

im back;))

Friday, May 12, 2006 8:56 PM

yeaa. dinner was nice. it was way too long since i last had sze chuan soup. missed it loads<3> well that we'll have to see huhh. ohh. yeaa. after searching for an eternity for a suitably priced hair salon. we stopped by supercuts. right. so i got a haircut. nothin different. was the comment made by all. yeaa. but heyy. i like my back. its SPIKED. i smell like a blueberry from all the soap i was covered in while washing after the trim. and ohhh. i like that gel the hairstylist used. must change my brand of wax to hers. hmm.;))
loads of upcoming this this week:

we have sharon's birthday on saturday.
mothers day on sunday.
rest of the papers next week.
basketball practice with edwin next wednesday.
going out with juniors on thursday. watchoverthehedge.
friends outing on friday.

things i must get soon.new hair gel.considering to change brand but i still like gatsby.;) that pair of ear studs with lemon. sharon's brithday present. dies. what does that woman want anyway from me? buy a bouquet of flowers for mum.;)) im nice.

back to cramping for geog. played enough for today. i wish.

spiked haircut.

7:41 PM

LEMON. i LOVE YOU.thanks so much for going out with me. i was about to die from boredom in the house. haha;)) met at eleven at tiong bahru station in which she was sporting a white tee and a pair of jeans. ohh. yeaa. that tote bag too. not me. too girl;D instead i wore a black tee and three quads with my army green sling bag and slung around my neck was my chain. basically. for the whole time we were hanging around orchard area. great! thanks. i finally understood the difference between paragon.cineleisure.lucky plaza. heeren.taka. mann. to me orchard just looks all the same. i mean whats the difference? whoaa. lemon brought me to some underground eating foodcourt which i have never seen before. wanna go there again. but. but. opps. i think i forgot how to walk there. I ATE LAKSA. mmm. we were obviously retarded while at heeren. talk crapp and gossips. went to HMV hehe. to check out pussycat dolls newest album. oohh. 18.90 thats how much my cousin has to spent on to buy it for me. haha;))

lemon made a lot of flops todayy. hehe. damm weird. ah ha. i dont know her then. she didnt realise that she walked towards a downriding escalator. and obviously i was too nice. to stay awat from her. so when she saw THE LIGHT. (heavens open up) she started to turn away pretending she didnt just do that. haha;)) i laughed till everyone around thought i had a weird case of laughing disease. opps. she also pulled me out of the train at city hall wanting to transfer to tiong bahru. dots. which part of crossing over directly was city hall station. it was raffles. once again. we were made to look like fools by running back into the train before the doors shut in on us.

opps. dinner. i'll continue later. haha;))

if its her smile. that makes me go crazy what else would.

Thursday, May 11, 2006 2:37 PM

OMG. i saw her today. so cool cans. AHHH. i could not. concentrate on my biology paper just thinking of it. it cant be such a concidence. that i would be able to meet her right? it was the very first time that we were right next to one another. and it was really a sight to remember. she SMILED at me. haha;)) im going crazy just thinking of it. and she was still around after my papers that ended late. although she didnt have any in the afternoon. oh great! now i sound over obsessed. this is madd and psycho;))
todayy papers were biology and social studies. two subjects that totally killed me the night before with all the memorising work. and whats worse. was that i totally screwed up the paper. whats with me. i had to do of all things. hand up the papers not separated. ohh. and yeo yeo had to make me feel worse by staring at me. when i handed up my papers. this sucks. biology papers were okayy but its like stabbing myself in the foot if i said it was easy.
veena please dont so mean as to sue me lahh.;)) opps. stupid me. made a dare with my pts that the biology chapter would not come out. and now what. i had to be damm sui. to actually have the question really come out. ohh great. sue me! and put me behing bars. ;))
yong ern/pearl. I LOVE YOU but i also LIKE YOUR BROWNIES;D
i went out with lunch with my recess budds after exams. opps. i totally forgot i had lunch waiting at home and i had chosen to eat carrot cake instead of fries and chips at home. bleahh.
LEMON must go out tomorrow with me i want to watch DA VINCI code with you yeaa. its a good thing im sixteen this year lehh;)p wanna walk around town with you too. ive missed you and your crapp.

rare sight in your common mrt trains. you think that those stick pads advertisements are clean. way no. read between the lines. 'holds on tightly. comes off clean.' i think you get my drift huhh.

kelly and doc. one more time you call me MANDY. you can consider yourselves all dead;))

yeaa. my first basketball lesson with edwin is this wednesdayy. im confused. between going out with my juniors. or learning for her. which should i take. confused right now.

a vision blurred. a moment of regret.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006 2:51 PM

all that i see around me are black spots. spinning all over in my vision. my head feels heavy and i just cant think straight. ohh. it hurts. my headache's getting worst. my whole dayy changed for the worst ever since i stepped into my classroom. it was the ending of me. chemistry paper two was alright just that im hoping that the paper one would be equally easy. but thats just pure hope;(( the end. came too soon when i sat down for my add maths paper one. yeaa. so what if its one. the paper just wasnt the right one. and what made it worst was my guilty regret that i didnt spend enough time reading up on the material. this sucks. everything this week does. if i was able to breeze through tomorrow it'll just be luck again. i cant take the stress anymore. its killing me not only physically tiring me down but also mentally. oh grreat. i still have biology and social studies paper the next dayy. my moment of realization is still a days away from funn.

things i want to do this week;)) .cut my hair(still thinking of the style). playy basketball. practice my guitar soon. go out with LEMON. slack my guts out;))

the neverending wait.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006 12:22 PM

why does vesak day always appear so far away from this week. just when i needed a break from studying the exam load has to start pouring in. great. todayy's emaths paper two was okayy. relatively competitive paper but yeaa. easy to do. i just hope it'll add to one of my A's thats all. tommorow's papers are hell. ive got chemistry paper two and add maths two. my brains fried up enough thanks. and i dont want to take in any more panadols. maybe i'll just die on wednesday when i sit for biology two and social studies. smirks;)) saw eight letter when i walked past her class after the papers. ha. she changed her uniform cos its a darker shade. her eyes are quite small withour her specs on. hehe;))

task unfulfiled. -back to books;((

me. basketball.

Monday, May 08, 2006 3:35 PM

finally. i can get the opportunity to learn basketball and guitar tabs from edwin. okayy. i guess he's NICE. wait. no. he ROCKS! thanks. oh yeaa. thanks brother for the free trial tution too;)) it feels kinda weird that ever since ive started liking eight letter. ive been interested in the sport. well i guess. opps. and ever since i went for my sundayy school camp and saw THE ONE playying the guitar. ive also taken it up.
heyy sis. dont be too upset over your matter. people will like you for who you are. its the YOU inside that will alwayys appeal to the people. well yeaa. they may judge on looks but heyy. it still ends up to whether the person has a good character. just open up more and people will see that you. thats alwayys been hiding behind those curtains. even if it means crapping more often acting retarded like me. its being who you are that you should enjoyy. dont be someone ure not. cos i love you just the wayy you are right now gurl;))

physics.oil.me.water.we dont mix.

3:18 PM

why did i even bother to take up physics as one of my sciences. its crazy. sometimes i really feel like total crapp. studying for a subject that has already mark a path of no way out for me. my physics is never gonna be good. so why do i still bother with it. THE PAPER WASNT EASY. great! in one breath. me spending the whole of sundayy night cramping for the paper didnt even help and knowing that i could have actually used that time to chat with doc. now. my head hurts real badd its like a never ending headache. thanks. guys for your cheering up after the papers it did help slightly but im still brooding over it;(( LEMON i love you. thanks for crapping with me in the morning before the start of papers. studying could never be more funn than to see you trying to sing the verses of ryan cabera's TRUE haha;))

i was lucky enough not to screw up on the Red Cross message all over on the PA system. HA! and i was like being waved at to slow down by the teachers. opps. it was a last minute speech.

I watched HONEY;)) just now on cable. so sweet. she's dances real HOTT.
*sweats fanns myself real hard*

im a good girl. i studied.

Saturday, May 06, 2006 5:56 PM

study study STUDY. is there anything less boring that i can do for the whole of saturday morning than to face my books. well okayy. i playyed a bit. went on net download songs and surfed the net. but heyy. i needed it. damm. sunday is gonna be equally boring too. i'll just die from facing too much books. maybe my brain will explode or my eyes will bulge out. crapp. edwin> NEVER never ever call me mandy again. call me that one more time and i'll slam dunk you next aikido training. a secret to keep: never ever try sleeping at three in the morning in front of the computer with the lame excuse of downloading songs. and waking up at twelve in the afternoon. its not good. trust me.
i want to go out again with my juniors.
im a good girl. i studied.

ICE and PERFUMED to the core.

Friday, May 05, 2006 11:55 PM

ICE and PERFUMED to the core:D. can todayy get any better than to go for aikido class feeling all so bored and tired after a whole dayy at school and still leave class feeling so energized. i still think there's black magic worked on my being whoaa. the cheesecake was damm nice in the afternoon when i ate it. but it gave me the runs during class and you seriously DO NOT want to know the end result of how it pictured. it was super awkward to runn away from class and sprint towards the toilet with the whole class staring at you when you come back from your torture. i want to go for my blue gold belt this coming july. just hope i'll be able to master all by then:))
resolution for todayy: to hump dump and sabbo edwin back next training. by hook or by crook. i will have to suan him back. agghh. EDWIN you did the worst to me todayy. u toad. pour ice all over me and inside my shirt with the exception of some going into the back of my___. its soo cold canns. and my worst nightmare. u had to gei kiang(daringly) spray perfume at my neck. count yourself lucky if my water bottle didnt hit you that hard. stabbs. u made me walk home with stares because of your strong deo. and now. i smell like a guy. thanks a lot bro.

eating my supper at 1209 aint a good thing even when its cup noodles and im blogging. whats new?

happy birthday cheryl.

4:47 PM

chinese. im over and done with you for NOW. opps. i totally forgot. my O levels papers are like right here in may. take it back. it wasnt so surprising that once again i so totally dont understand the passages. you know. its like im reading a foreign newsletter or something. the way i managed to breeze thru every paper is thru guesswork. but i guess lady luck doesnt shine when the clouds are grey. i LOVE you edlyn:)) thanks for going out with me at the last minute. i was bored and needed to find someone to spend that cash with me. count yourself lucky that you manage to find six dollars spare cash from buying tactics. I WANNA WATCH IT SOON:)) so gay. but yet so nice. wow. i still think coffee bean's chocolate ice blended is super nicce. and the chicago cheesecake practically melts in your mouth when you eat it. ahhha. you make me feel retarded in your presense. thats what i like bout you. i feel damm stupid now. i cant believe for chinese letter writing i actually had enough dumb sense to write red hill in the contents when stated the address of the writer. retarded and senile.its almost like writing that youre staying in clementi from the address when youre reporting that you stay at red hill. dumb and dumberer.

long weekend to long forward to but seriously. its going to be filled up by studying. bored.and i still have aikido tonight. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL;))poor cheryl. got draw all over with indian war art with CAKE opps. thats sadd. and your cake got ruined. but heyy. we had funn. and edwin was nice to ACTUALLY TRY TO play the violin for her. opps. i pity you. of all things. you got ____for your birthdayy. i am lucky;))

my recent. happenings.

Thursday, May 04, 2006 3:13 PM

DOWN one many more to go. had e maths paper today. but it was like only two whole hours in the morning leaving plenty of time for me to crapp now in the blogg. i cant believe i even had too much free time. to change my blogskin yeaa. math paper was sucar sucar done(anyhow). dies. its that irritatable feeling. that you have inside that somehow you think you manage the paper well but you fear. the careless mistake. well anyway tmr is chinese. and with just the remaining minutes in my life. im never going to master the language. ive tried to love the culture once AGAIN. with the help from my labb partner. just hoppe that somehow i'll be able to breeze through tmr's paper.
unexpected things that happened to me recently>>

eight letter walked past me in the morning today;))
my relationship with my mom is going well again
I LOVE MY JUNIORS TO BITS
i realised that 'she' has changed and her actions are affecting me
i have seem to lose my self confidence in approaching to sort things out with 'her'
i just want to PLAYY and have funn to forget my troubles

weird. antics in class.

Wednesday, May 03, 2006 7:53 PM

lalala. i didnt know just having a red cross dae celebration in school could take up so much of my energy that was reserved for the afternoon. i was so tired after the whole thing that not surprisingly i slept during maths class. whoaa. i mean it aint fung fault that her teaching was a bit dull then but maybe i was just too tired to hold up my eyelids to pay attention hahaa. sadly. my dreamland was somehow disturbed by my neighbour wahh! i want my sleep. ha! she woke up up yeaa scaring me that whatever fung teaching then was important. diaoz. haha;)) mr yeo's chemistry lesson was super rush hurried today. giving the simple excuse that he had to go for a meeting at 2.45pm. whooa. tell you. that guy can runn really and im talking with the chemistry book held close to his body with the laptop slung over his shoulder. in his panic state not to be late. he was talking like a machine gunn today you know the newest model that goes. bang bang bangg kapoosh. haha;)) okayy im crapping. and he nearly wanted to shock the class. with all his waving of his hands oohh. "you see the zinc metal will poke into the orange(does a jabbing motion) and the copper metal on the other side(jabbs again). the electricity will flow through the reactive metal to the less reactive metal. electric cell (finale! he waves about in the air to show the electricity flowing through)" yeaa. i get it.

Foot.prints

7:35 PM

Footprints

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonging to him, and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it. "LORD, you said that once i decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But i have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when i needed you the most you would leave me."

The LORD replied,"My precious, precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then i who carried you."

to all out there rejoice for the LORD wants to be near you with you in all your times. offer up your worries to HIM and HE will set your heart at peace.

laughing gas. at tiong.

7:17 PM

right. the very next day was supposedly my emaths paper. and what am i doing going out for lunch. i can just say im ultra uber smart. yeaa. after like spending an eternity at school deciding on the place to go our for our lunch while waiting for kel to finish her english class, we ended up at tiong eating at macs. i tell u. although it sounded as though i was the senior there with kel and doc being the juniors. i seriously think i was that mere junior while kel was the cool-headed one. while me and doc starting to have fits haha;)) it was super funny cans. we all kept laughing when i kept dropping my clips and even my uniform. so what if i was clumsy. hmmf. i got laughed at haah. whoop. sorry doc ha! didnt nue my force was soo great that i capsized you with all your stuff. heyy trust me. tmr u will see that faithful mark of bruise there on your hand. initials: i fell for amanda:)) haha! heyy. my face all redd cans from all that slapping that you gave me doc. next time we have got to try it with sound and drama effects yeaa. thanks doc and kel for the lunch.
i wanna go out with youre guys AGAIN. i love my GREAT juniors so much.

my friends. closed.

Monday, May 01, 2006 10:30 PM

my gossip partner.all my darkest secrets lay in her hands. shh. sush.

shorties in the class. tell us that. and consider yourself smacked in the head. sinie ^mee

my best budd since sec one .drey koh. lurve yaa:))

my recess gang;)) recess aint boring with them in it.

my life. right now.

10:23 PM

this is how my life feels like now.im all alone facing the troubles ahead.with nothing but myself to depend on.to be strong.to defend.but it is the courage i lack.

neverending battle

8:32 PM

somehow i just think this battle aint going to end this night or any other night to come. its entirely impossible to end it with two stubborn people at loggerheads with one another for something so small. and guess what i broke my record for not speaking her for the whole of today and not even looking at her in the eye with the same result that i got from her. so why should i bother. i cant understand why she doesnt breathe down my sisters neck when the exams draw near except for me. does it mean i have to get sick in order to get some love and attention i seek. yeaa so what if today was labour day. it was totally not labour free. i had to study from morning till night. u call that labour free. yeaa rite.

the brat

12:17 PM

seoul garden with best budds.

floured again. its no surprise. rc camp'05

taken at sakae sushi after swimmaton'o6
able to see the transformation yeaa.

silent battle against my mom

10:19 AM

yeaa. im damm pissed with her cans. not only can she govern my life at home outside is also a reality. practically day in day out its studying for me. now im saying: without the computer, the television or even a nap in the afternoon. i feel as though im staying in a girls home right at this moment. i mean simple things like me taking a break from the crapp i just studied is also prohibited. 'amanda why are you going so near to the computer' what! you mean i cant just walk past it huhh. i feel total crapp now cans. if i were to get sick for the exams. it'll be all because of her... she was the cause of mee taking a panadol for my headache from studying all the crapp and if i were to take another one i might just as well study a bit more crapp and take more tablets. thanks a lot mom.