the risks that i take are all worth is even if it's for a loss

Monday, July 30, 2007 11:18 PM

me and charmaine while waiting for the bus after mass;D (trust me- we arent bad girls. and you dont have to magnify the picture on our tongues. we didnt have it pierced.)

my sister actually thought it was taken in school and there was a blackboard with maths equations on it. nope, it's called GRAFFITTI.

i doubt i look good in black eyeliner. nope. not in my case.

9:11 PM

30th july 2007
Day a hundred and eight.

he gave me a friend to accompany me on the walk home. we both stood on the oppsite sides of the road. he was by the first house at the corner block while i was passing through the playground area, one strap of my bag slung over my left shoulder while my arms were occupied with books. he didnt help me out but he accompanied me on my walk home. there he was shuffling with something beheath him on the ground, covering what ever remains of what he had just buried in that 'hidden spot' of his. he looked up at me as i passed on the opposite road. i smiled.

the winds got stronger with each passing minute. it was so cold i had to rewrap myself in my jacket. i gave up trying to cover myself and decided to just make it for home in a run. without thinking, i broke into a run. he looked up from his digging and started to run with me. (note: i didnt use the word run after me because he wasnt)

noticing that he left his spot by the house and started to trod along with my run, i slowed down before coming to a stop so he could catch up. he caught up with me on the opposite side of the road- standing by the pillar of a lamp post, he looked up at me with much excitement to what i was going to do next. i started to walk again. he followed beside me on the other side. i looked straight ahead at the road before me, there was no need to look behind much because his bell would ring at the paces he took. i stopped and looked behind to see if he caught up. he stood still in his tracks, made a roundabout on the stop, pretending not to follow me-he diverted his attention to looking around him. i knew better.

i turned back on walking home. once again, his attention shifted to me. he followed with small little trods of which his bell rang continuously with each trod that he took. he wagged his tail at me. i stopped a couple of times to see if he was still catching up with me. i took the road while he walked on the pavement. for each time that i looked back over my shoulder, he stopped in his tracks, walked in a circle before finding a post to pee on. ( the only problem is: when i quinted at him there was no pee at all. )

he was cute. he accompanied me all the way to the house from which was a long way from his own. it was a long walk home of which i have no idea till now if he made it back on his own. he left me by the porch as i called out to my cousins to help me open the garage door. he looked up at me. he didnt want to leave me just yet. he wanted to make sure i was okay. he wanted to play a bit more with me.

the garage door opened. midway, i walked in. he came to the front of the garage door just as i set foot in the garage. he wagged his tail at me. he didnt want to leave, not just yet. i watched the door close before my eyes as he backed off from the closing door. as it shut itself shut, that was the end of him. i didnt see him anymore. somehow, i hope he's safe back home.

morning. it had to break down at that moment. after i got onto the bus at the stop where i waited dutifully every morning, and after a turn by the junction's traffic light, the bus had to stop. the reason, pressure difference in the tyres. there wasnt much we could do as passengers, there wasnt much the bus driver could do either except for a call he made to the bus port for another bus to replace this one. the replacement bus came a few minutes too late. we changed over to the replacement with those few wasted mintues of waiting.

i was going to be late. i had an in-class assignment to do for english and we had to be there three quarters to nine. i was really going to be late. no doubt about it.

the bus carried on its route before the next bus came and caught up with it. once again, we had to change from the replacement bus to the next 883. when we finally reached cannington train station, it was a quarter past eight, i reached school on a normal basis at that time. the connecting bus 34 that i had to catch was waiting by its stand, many of us ran after the bus. i did and in turn ended by losing my bottle on the way. oh wells. i ought to get another one soon though i was glad since it lightened my bag load by that much.

not too late. though drenched from the showers that morning while walking to school, i managed to reach class in time for the assesment.

'im so sorry john im late.'

'there's a first time for everything, amanda.'

he gave me my writing papers and set me down by my desk to start the essay. lucky for me, he just started the assessment then. i wasnt too late i hope. my mind was all fuzzed up from the cold weather and the soaked skin chilled my bones making it really hard for my fingers to hold my pen to start writing my first few letters. i shivered as i wrote down the question number. a few more of us came in later ( he was nice to accept our reasons of being late because of the showers). i finished my papers in due time, now im just hoping it'll turn out fine.

not my piggytail. hands off! it has to be that. somehow guys always seem to be attacted to touch those little tails that we have at the back of our heads. now you get my point as to why i rather prefer the shorter style ( this gives them no excuse to pull it down or anything, just a reason to mess and ruffle it up)

ive got three guys i need to be wary of. somehow when its just me and them, my piggytail always seems to be at stake. HAHA. ive spent my day running away from them or just whacking them whenever they touched it. a mere touch and you get a whack from me, gosh! it took me minutes to tie it up and you spend like less than a second to pull it out.

when it's not my tail at stake, it's my green converse-tongue sneakers of which somehow those three guys also have something against. it's something to do with the colour. gosh! green is nice. i bought it like months ago and right now, you should see it's state. its had the footprints of those few guys who have stepped on it. and the same goes for them, they have had my pretty shoe marked autograph of my print on their front of their shoes.

did i mention, i tasted sweet today. shayma was nice enough to 'lend' me his water for a drink since i had lost mine earlier thsi morning. it was those with the weird caps of which i couldnt open. he helped me with it. i took a drink without touching the edges. hardly much came out. he took it back from me saying how he'll be 'nice' enough to help me squirt the water into my mouth. i take my gullible side back. gosh! the next moment, we had our water fight with his sweetened water. my back was all wet, his front had the same result.

today was wet. literally the whole day it was raining with heavy showers at noon. im glad when i was going home the showers stopped if not, i would have just died trying to go against the winds while walking and shielding myself from the passing showers. HAHA. darryl drove me and shayma to the curtin bus station after chemistry class was done. sweet car. red gosh! nice! i have to learn driving soon (and guys stop mocking me. i know im short and i cant reach the brakes HAHA. cmon, im not that'short')

Sunday, July 29, 2007 6:59 PM

29th july 2007
Day a hundred and seven.

the weekend was really boring, with no where to go because of perth's small area size (no kidding- though it may be bigger than singapore by that many times, but the places to roam about is limited) or either because of the stupid rains that come almost every other day.

perth's city aint that great either. its been my 5th or so trip there and ive already seem to have gotten bored of the places. you dont have your bugis street in the city. its not the same here. most of the malls here all have the same chains of shops. you'll most probably see the same line of stores at one mall and the next in another. gosh! if youre not bored seeing the same style of clothing by the same brand and manufacturer, then I AM.

you know how people usually say you shop till you drop? well, i shop till i get bored. gosh! i miss shopping in singapore. when im back- im going on a shopping marathon and my first stop would be bugis street.

there's no where much you can even go to. if its not livingston shopping mall, its carousel i go to for my weekly groceries or if not its the city. HAHA. it's pretty crazy to catch a train all the way to fremantle. perth, in short, is a boring place.

everyone in singapore wants to migrate over either to canada or australia to study. well, that's a pretty sound choice since it's really a good and quiet ( really quiet) environment to study in. let's say its condusive for the information to sink in and for you to get your gears up for study mode here. since there isn't anything else you COULD do, well its studies that keep you from going bored. i know it sounds stupid, but im starting to love homework. my current eye candy- my homework. well, its the next thing i do other than to eat, sleep, blog or just chat online. that's pretty much what i've been doing for the past few months ive been here.

chocolates still remain as my top favourite eye candy though. i havent been eating much of it these few days. charmaine has been nice enough to finish up my yellow jar full of chocolates. thanks a lot! those few days i had to get my butt off for school while she stayed at home sleeping like a pig well, has been spent on eating what's left of my chocolates, now that ive been what's left of my baby ( my yellow jar) it's only half full! what happened to the AMANDA that was written on a masking tape and taped on the top? what happened to private property to actual being public property? there's no fairness in this world. HAHA.

she tried to tempt me a couple of times so that it'll seem as though ive had my share of the decreasing rate of which my chocolates are disappearing, but lady, it's not working on me. try another sucker. it might work on them. HAHA. now, i have to have buy yet another bar of my chocolate. COOLS. there's a sale. cadbury chocolate ( big bar of 60 chunks)going at two dollars.

im trying not to get addicted to chocolate anymore. someone 'nice' said my face looks chubbier.

Friday, July 27, 2007 8:23 AM

27th july 2007
Day a hundred and five.

everyone seems to have dyed or highlighted their hair. almost everyone in every single class. it's really a prominent sight in college- you have students walking in with pink, red, green, some purple and the rest are brown or blonde. GOSH. im so envious. HAHA.

ive gotten back most of my marks, well okay all of them since im only taking five subjects which was already the maximum. somehow i just miss singapore's grading of the alphabets. ( okay i might seem as though im for singapore's education system but trust me- when it comes to education, seriously, choose singapore;D they help you get nicer grades.) oh wells. i guess over here no one really cares much if you get a B or C. hardly anyone aims for an A. and to get an A over here, its 76 and above. no kidding- i used to be lucky every once to be on the borderline of an A back home in singapore scoring a 75 on the margin. that's how lucky i can get.

i never did like thursdays. well not once at all since it ended late on these days and i hate catching the bus late home, the sun usually sets at about 4.30 in winter. that's how bad it is. and somehow, these past few days, it's been raining cats and dogs. not good. consider yourself lucky if it rains on the bus instead of when youre walking home. the most irritating thing is, when youre halfway walking home and it just pours really heavy only to have it stop when you reach shelter. gosh! ( you just want to jump into the puddle and scold your luck for being 'so nice' to you)

the econs' lecturer didnt come today- woohoo! we had like two hours of free period without any teacher to take over since there was a shortage of teachers then. let me say this, two hours of free period is really long. well you never do realise when youre always somehow dozing off in his classes or just crossing your fingers under the table, glancing at the clock every 10 minutes and hoping, just wishing that time would pass by soon enough. we went to the library with the initial plan to do homework but we found ourselves clean of homework- either the teachers havent gone through the new chapters or when you just read through them, you cant get nuts of what the chapter is all about ( i think i'll just stick to waiting for the teacher to cover the lesson in class) so we're all clean of homework, you have a bunch of girls there in the learning centre with nothing to do, so when that happens, what do you get? bitching and crapping. okay i'll leave the bitching aside- because it wasnt that bad either. HAHA.

Wednesday, July 25, 2007 9:42 PM

25th july 2007
Day a hundred and three.

no wonder they said the heavens were kind. i thank my lucky stars above for helping me through my mid terms. HAHA. i didnt do too well for some but yet did exceptionally well for the others. i guess it just strikes a balance there. HAHA. i didnt do too well for the stuffs i studied- economics but yet i did better for chemistry both of which ive only spent the weekends to study upon. and the weekends then were mostly spent on entertaining charmaine since she just arrived too on that fateful sunday afternoon.

he owes me a treat! i finally beat him in both applicable maths and chemistry. my hard work has paid off ( three days of hard work) HAHA/ well he did beat me in my previous two tests for these two subjects of which i cant believe ive lost to him by a mere few marks THEN. and to think i had to owe him a treat in the cafeteria one day. now, its my turn! HAHA.

a whole day's trip to the city with him paying for everything i were to eat. no bad- i could just have breakfast lunch and dinner on him. HAHA. i'll send you the tab when im done! oh well, be glad im a small one. but i guess when you see the amouts i even eat you'll be amazed.

Tuesday, July 24, 2007 7:24 PM

24th july 2007
Day one hundred and two.

did i mention? I've already reached my hundred day here in perth on sunday and to celebrate that, i was crazy enough to do a hundred crunches then. not kidding- it was continuous. HAHA. hello hot bod, goodbye fatties! i think all this conversation involving fatties at dinner time has made me think twice about coming back looking any different, thank you, but i wish to stay the same height (unfortunately i cant grow anymore) and weight.

i guess when someone tells you they did a hundred crunches all at once, you'll think twice before believing them (even more so if it came out of a mouth of a midget) oh wells. i had my stunt all well planned out before i even attempted it. HAHA. it's not really that difficult to accomplish this almost impossible task.

first do a thrity and take a short rest on the bed lying down. then do another fifty. treat yourself to an extremely long break ( long enough to take out your computer and play three solitaire games) before you try your hundred.

college starts today and runs for the next 4 months or so before i come back to singapore after completing my TEE exams.

you'll be amazed by the number of new students we have at college because of the uni direct and short classes commencing just this week. HAHA. the cafeteria has never been so crowded with the large crowds since the last i saw it in its pityful state with a handful of students during the examination period.

new students= new hotties!

wow. its a wonder, me and lp eyes didnt get tired from all the scanning around the cafeteria. HAHA. not just because we were scanning for possible hotties with substance, but also the fact that many people who came back after the vacation break seemed to have done something with their hair. i kind of think- the hairdressers would have earned loads from the number of students getting their hair dyed or cut. HAHA. it seemed as though the college was turning into the fashion show with various new hairstyles NOT KIDDING. you have green, red, pink, brown, blonde and this isnt the end of the list yet.

ive got my results back. not too good. english and econs for now. everyone didnt do well either. oh wells, there's always next term i guess to try again. HAHA. they said i did okay- i thought i could do better if i had known what the question wanted. i guess i'll look out the next time. HAHA.

it was raining the whole day today. i wore three layers and still feeling the cold. i hate days wheres theres rains and WIND. on these days, you'll just wish that you didnt have to crawl out of bed at all. (and she didnt have to go to university today!)

Saturday, July 21, 2007 2:39 PM

21st july 2007
Day ninety nine.

its been raining for three days straight and it just wont stop. my weekends have already been predecided that i stay home because of the rains. it just keeps pouring as those the showers never stop. i wonder sometimes where all those wather up above come from since there low humidity here. oh wells. this is winter for you.

i never liked rains not to mention winter at all. i dont like being cooped up at home just staring out of the window panes at the passing showers. these showers just come and go. they just beat against your tiles on the roof for those few mintues before they leave off to somewhere else and then the next passing showers come and go.

its never a good thing when youre out there caught in the rains. it just takes a click of your finger to have the rains starting down on you and it takes you a whole minute to either take out your umbrella or raincoat. what's worst is when youre all donned in your wet outfit, the rains just stop, leaving you just wet from head to toe.

ive spent my rainy days at home going online, playing my guitar or either rushing in and out of the house to collect or hang out the clothes to dry. when its winter, everyone tries to take advantage of what little sun we have to dry our clothes. i bet i look like an idiot running in and out of the house taking and hanging back the clothes.

we had lunch at home since we couldnt go out because of the rains. a normal meal
conversation(s) at the table would go like this (these).

conversation number one:

'you know what i hate?'

'fatties?'

'that's right!'

'and you know what you are?'

'im NOT a fatties'

conversation number two:

'who says they're a fatties? say ombugla ombugla'

conversation number three:

'if im a fatties then you are too!'

'im NOT A FATTIES' you have no proof to say im fat, no evidence at all.

'BUT NOOO. look at you. youre all fats you fatties!'

conversation number four:

'gimme all your money if not die!'

'hey! you owe me money, oh nooo. you owe me all your life savings'

since your last bet with me where you owed me your millions'

'hey! when did i say that?'

conversation number five:

'cuddle cuddle cuddle. ON THE....'

'GO'

(this part, he expects you to answer GO.)

its conversations like these you never get bored of. HAHA. although its the same argument everytime be it say about fatties or monies. oh wells. we had fun laughing at meal times.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007 9:10 PM

18th july 2007

Day ninety six.

i brought charmaine to the city again. this time round, it was along the streets. perth city is boring for shopping. its the worst place you can ever go for a shopping spree. even singapore would rank better than that. everywhere you go in the city, has the same stores in your malls. its the same style of clothes, the same outfits and the same designs. no change, all the same. no wonder you'll get bored of it sooner of later. i already did. this has been my 6 or so trip to the city and my boredom is killing me. at least back home, you have bugis street shopping to interest you.

there wasnt much to show her around in perth's city either. everything's the same old stuff and most shops well- are basically prohibited by our means.

other than the small outskirts of the city with few malls to shop at, there were little varieties to look through also- most of the brand names just kept repeating themselves.

i was you could say, plain bored while i followed charmaine along her shopping. ive seen the same designs everywhere in most shops for almost my 6th time being my 6th time to the city.

charmaine's got her own HOTattoo today at city beach- HAHA. she wanted one since i got mine the last. it's all washed off already though i had managed to keep it lasting and looking good for almost two days. HAHA. i love mine. she hates hers- said it looked like some funny sunflower.

there was a silent protest today in the city too. people were handing out leaflets on 'stop clonning' and 'stem cell research'. HAHA. they were all geared and prepared to walk down the streets of perth proclaiming their call to all with boards that hung over their necks and papers given out to almost everyone that crossed their path.

there wasnt much to do in the city either so we decided to go home early. the sun was still shining, the weather hot, my terms of hot is basically having the sun shining at a temperature of 23 degrees, be thankful for that high temperature already.

i wanted to go running. but i guess the elders at home wouldnt allow of it either since it'll be too late by then, so i decided not to. but the weather was so nice for a run and i havent went out for a run for the past four months. i cant believed i trained so hard for three whole months in acjc running almost 5km in each session and now, im here slacking off without even one day of running.

we grew bored of walking home and decided to stop by the playground area before we set off for home. HAHA. though it was small, but we were the only ones there at the place so it kinda seemed big. where's the swings when you wanted them? wheres all the seesaws gone? gosh! i miss my childhood. i miss the monkey bars out on the playground that we had back home where my sisters and i would challenge each other to who could get over to the other side the fastest. MY GOSH. i miss that!

the holidays seem so long. i know this sounds crazy. but i rather go back to school/ college now. to have friends you can see and meet up everyday to chat up with, to laugh with, beats having nothing to do much when you go to the city or staying at home with people finding fault at every last thing that you do wrong. every single day for the past week, its been the same- you wake up only to find out that you have someone scolding you for something you didnt do right or according to what they want.

that's life for the next 4 to 5 months or so, for which now i have one more person to share the scoldings with;D

Tuesday, July 17, 2007 8:02 PM

17th july 2007
Day ninety five

harry took me out for a date! though i cant say the date went perfectly well since the movie didnt go as great as i thought it would be. the newest harry potter and the order of the phoenix- well, i cant seem to find any grouping for it as yet. though, i cant say that i AM and i wont deny that i am jealous when cho kissed harry just like that. my gosh, at this point, the whole theatre shifted in their seats.

if youre the type who rather a whole lot of action to do with magic spells and wooha! then, harry potter and the chamber of secrets is your game. if youre for the complicated twist and climatic storyline packed with ghostly gruesome characters like the dementors and a whole climax to harry's only family left, then harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban would be your cup of tea.

LOVE. and its harry potter and the goblet of fire. a definate yes to that lovey dovey scene where everyone gets jealous over cho chang's place with harry on the movie set.

for my own taste preference, i rather prefer the prisoner of azkaban because of the fantastic storyline that went with it and the whole lot of action with the dementors, though i must say thete were a couple of times i did grab my sister's hand beside when it came to the dementor's attack. the whole story came to a climax with the involvement of the dark lord himself. although there were certain parts of the story that i didnt get till the last bit when everything sumed up, but it was still rather good as with pirates of the carribean.

GOSH. i like harry potter and the goblet of fire only because, harry took off his clothes. but seriously, there wasnt much to look at either. other than a few pecs here and there, if i did count correctly, it was four. oh wells, the rest were mostly just skin and bones. i wouldnt say his bod is hot enough to drool over but oh wells, the fans out there admires it.

i am so angry. sharon just told me that there were scenes cut off from this recent harry potter instalment. i cant believe they totally took out the scene where harry was naked. my gosh, that would be a real eye-opener. i cant believe they did this to us.

point to note! fred and george weasley are somehow getting hotter after every instalment of harry potter. i have no idea why so but they are just getting so HOT. haha;D other than if you compare youre average harry potter himself, ron weasley or neveil longbottom or draco malfoy, well somehow these guys just dont keep getting hotter, the girls, on the other hand- someone keep getting prettier! HAHA. but thats not the case. FRED AND GEORGE WEASLEY ARE HOT

i went shopping with my sister after the movie, after we got ourselves lunch: pretzels. just pretzels only but it was filling. she took a long time to decide on what she wanted before settling with just salted original. after a long 3 mintues on 'should i get the hawaiian one or the almond cheese?' my gosh, and i chose mine like straight away. when it comes to ordering, never ever get her to order anything. but when it comes to paying, well thats an entirely different story- of course she'll pay, she's wthe bigger sister.

she made me walked around carousel like three times. once to view the clothes in all the shops, secondly to focus and identify the shops that she might consider buying clothes in and taking a second visit into them, and thirdly, to the actual buying of the clothes there. she made me walk into four shops like thrice.

the next i go shopping with her, remind me to wear shoes instead of thongs, they're a much better bet consider the amount of miles i have to cover with her, shoes would be a much safer bet on since its a lot of walking to do in the first place. call myself a shoppaholic, she's the better one, only in this case, she doesnt buy much, she window shops a lot. and when i say a lot. i mean a lot, to all the potential boyfriends of hers out there, she's good when it comes to shopping. real good. even i am going crazy with her around.

Monday, July 16, 2007 9:26 PM

16th july 2007
Day ninety four.

she finally woke up earlier than me! like finally for once! ive always been the one up first even though her alarm would go off first. i still dont get her alarm ring tone that she uses on her handphone, one in a million by bosson- i seriously dont get how such a slow moving love tune can wake you up from your slumber. she practically hates my ringtone. ive still got ACJC's orientation mass dance song as my alarm tone. it's rocking good because it causes you to jump out of bed ) something needed for a sleepy head like me.

ive been making the milos in the morning so since she was up early today. i made her do it eventhough i could still do it while she was busy dolling herself up in the mirror. my gosh, i dont even take that long as to dress up and all. and not forgetting i have hair to actually tied up now so theres not much of a difference, other than the number of cosmetics she applies on her face.

we visited the bank today to get charmaine's card working in order and to activate her account on the spot there at the cannington branch. she took like almost close to an hour there. well to me it felt like an hour ( okay maybe it was shorter by A BIT) i brought my book to keep me company, if not i'll grow as bored as jason. he ended up playing with the artifical rocks and pulling all the roots from the baby's breath in the flower pot to kill his boredom.

we did shopping for groceries later on. i had nothing to shop for though since there was no school. when there WAS school- i'll be at my usual spots, picking out fresh lettuce, two tomatoes and two packets of ham, and also a whole packet of six of apple juice cartons. and maybe just maybe once in a while i'll get myself a bar of chocolate to treat myself with my results and hard work put in. this time round, i got another bar of cadbury chocolate because all thanks to charmaine, every since she came my chocolates in their yellow jar has been decreasing at a pretty fast pace. HAHA. not because she's been all of it. but when she does eat it, she makes so much noise, all the groaning and stuff or she eats it in front of me hoping to tempt me into eating them with her. WELL. she got me. she managed to. i fell for her little dirty trick.

im not getting any fatter. thank goodness well im not hoping to. so for all those who were betting on the fact that i'll return yet a little chubbier as i had been when i was young in those days with my fat little stubby thighs that everyone else called 'pork knuckle legs' , well think again and take that bet back. no way am i going to return a little fatter. im happy with my 45kg weight. so eating chocolates wouldnt hurt much other than the fact that it makes me really happy after eating it.

the benefits of chocolate!

1. pregnancy
It has been proven that pregnant woment who eat chocolates were much more active, smiled, laughed and showed less fear of new situations. ( thats true, therefore when i get pregnant, im having a box full of chocolates beside my bed- and no one's touching them. )

2. sore throat
An ingredient of chocolate called theobromine, is nearly a third more effective in stopping persistent coughs than the leading medicine codeine. Theobromine works by suppressing vagus nerve activity, which is responsible for causing coughing. (i told you! my cough didnt result from eating too much chocolates, instead eating chocolates was only helping out to reduce my coughing, so i was merely taking my 'medicine' as instructed. HAHA. just like you have to take medicine regularly, so do i have to take my chocolates)

3. depression
Modest amounts of chocolate and darker chocolate can give a real lift to someone who is feeling depressed as chocolate contains chemicals that helps to produce feelings of elation and promote feelings of euphoria. (therefore, i ought to eat a chocolate a day to help keep my feelings in check) also, in tune with that, laugh more everyday. read my earlier post for laughter as a best medicine.

4. heart
There was so much written on that part so i'll just cut short. eat more chocolates and you might live longer. chocolates help you live longer since it helps in blood circulation to your heart. it contains chemicals that prevent the impedment of blood clots. (if you want to live to be a grandmother or father of your children and see your grandkids drive you crazy, eat chocolates!)

5. aging
I'll keep it short. chocolates keep you looking young. ( so why not start eating chocolates today and fool everyone in front of you on your real age. i may be seventeen but i dont look like one instead i look like im only 14. imagine if im 40, would you say i look 30? you'll make me a happy woman then;D)

not everyone is happy about us eating chocolates at home. well not her though. i shouldnt buy anymore big bars of chocolates, the next i'll buy tiny ones. HAHA. she didnt seem so happy when i brought back my chocolate bar then. she said i'll grow fat from eating too much and that the ants will not come and bite her instead it'll come and bite you. it was weird then since ever since my stay here, ive not seen a single ant at all. im not kidding. somehow ants dont really like the cold weather. oh wells, i havent had a great day either. so much trouble for just a bar of chocolate. i should stand by my judgement and get tiny little ones the next.

Sunday, July 15, 2007 8:09 PM

15th july 2007

Day ninety three.

start laughing today because it's a good thing. laughing helps to increase your ability to to think better and you tend to have better memory. (i think that explains my super good memory when it comes to studies but somehow it doesnt have the same effect on birthdays. i cant remember birthdays for nuts)

studies have shown that kids laugh 300 times a day as compared to adults at only 50-100 times. im not kidding. so start being a kid now! be as childlike just like me because its good when you laugh a lot. (you see, sometimes it aint that bad being the super childish me, other than the fact you always have people going - 'pats' your head and saying 'hey midget or small and cute girl'- take them as a compliment!)

we out to the city again after mass. finally i have someone at mass with me- someone i can hold and hug during peace giving, someone i can lean on while we stand. HAHA. i guess it'll take some time getting used to the new customs that they have here in mass, the songs sung the procedures. but its a nice place to pray at.

we took a long walk out to the bus stop. it was located like 400 metres away and we had no walk pathway to walk or we ended walking close to the roadside on the highway. two small girls on the highway sides. trust me we didnt take any pictures there. these pictures were taken while walking out of church.

we ate lunch at TAKA. i think its my third time so far. i recommended the tofu set meal to charmaine since it was my first set meal there also. really good. the tofu's skin is really soft and the sauce you dip into hmmm delicious. even charmaine couldnt resist.

she even asked me

'you want my tofu?'

it took me about a second or two to get her real idea of what she was asking of me.

i replied with a shock'

'NO WAY'

'i have mine thank you.'

it was a sick meal to start off with. i had my tuna!! don meal. my gosh;D its been four whole months since i last touched wasabi. my gosh, i miss it loads like heck loads.

HAHA. i took so much in one go i nearly teared and she laughed at me for having done that to myself. HEY, I MISS IT LOADS. I CANT HELP IT.

we went to harbour town after lunch. finally SHOPPING! haha;D finally i have a shopping buddy. HA. but she takes forever to decide on what to choose. thank goodness there's me. HA. i bought a belt, while she got herself a jacket and a long sleeve. HAHA.

we left harbour town by 445 thinking that we could catch the 15 minutes yellow cat, so we decided to wait inside in one of the shops. we missed that bus when we got out. gosh- it didnt even feel like 15 mintues passed.

i guess when youre having fun reading a book on your horoscope and your compatability with other star signs, you tend to lose yourself into the book and forget the time. opps. so we went out to check the next bus timing. another 45minutes gosh. thats long to wait out in the cold with cars zooming past, carrying the wind with them. we went back to the same shop to read further into the book. not bad. someone its true to a certain extent. okay well to a lot of extents.

how to get rid of a taurus woman: number one,tell her that her bank account with you has been frozen and the only free flowing cash is from her own, after checking her own account, and seeing its emptied out- she'll go bonkers. number two, tell her this: 'sorry honey, not tonight, i have a headache.' after repeating using this statement for three months, she'll leave you.

ive a great day out in the afternoon. but not so much the night. after the both of us got scolded by grandma for using the heater. and i didnt even used it at all! charmaine was using it because she felt cold, i was on my bed with my computer, she was on the floor when we heard a knock. charmaine opened it, she stood outside and started yelling at us for using the heater because it totally stuffed up the room. hey, you cant help if charmaine feels cold, she's just been here like a week, she hasnt climatised yet, we even got accused of using it for almost hours when all my sister did was turn it on for a mere 10 mintues. how did mintues turn into hours?

the scolding appeared as though she was scolding me alone. not her even though it was clear obvious that my sister used the heater since she was sitting beside it. nope, her face was turned towards my direction and she totally ignored my sister's presence by the door. instead, she looked on at me with that stern attitude at though everything was my fault. how is it mine?

everyone in this household seems against me. other than the fact that now at least i have someone i know on my side. i dont blame her for anything at all. i know how cold it gets when youre not used to the temperature and all. i dont get why the restriction on heater usage and all. and dont tell me you can die from not having enough air in your room, we do open up the door for circulation.

that stern look, she gave it only to one person, me.

Saturday, July 14, 2007 3:06 PM

14th july 2007
Day ninety two.

its a hot saturday morning and afternoon and i didnt go out. i cant believe i didnt go out not when theres so much shopping to do. sheesh;D im going to pull that woman out with me soon, i'll just drag her out to the city at all costs. not for the fact that i want to let her see the city but i need an excuse to get out. michelle has gone back home to singapore- the next im asking out are shayma, celest and the rest;D HAHA. wa whole week of shopping to do- im not wasting anymore time since i dont have much time left anyway since after the holidays i'll be back to my nerdy self.

daddy calls me a hwa chong/anderson nerd because of the fact that i study so much in his presence. hey i have no choice- ive got free periods when you guys have elacs classes and only the library has heater functions plus a quiet environment to doze off in. AH...

saturday and i spent the day at home. sunday and we have mass. we cant go out after that because on a sunday most shops arent opened. thr transport times are all irregular, no one wants to work on a rest day- thats why you cant do much on a sunday.

sundays are meant to be spent to home lazing about, doing your laundry and more lazing about. im turning into a couch potato soon. but at least i dont sleep as much as that pig. HAHA. she sleeps almost earlier than me only to wake up later and she's still tired. MY GOSH. the weather is really taking a toll on her. HA. you'll get used to it dont worry. ive survived my first week just like you well other than the fact that i fell sick like two weeks after. HAHA. didnt have enough rest so i guess youre doing the right thing. besides you have all the time right now before you start uni studies to laze around.

after that, you'll have loads of time ( wait more like very little time) to sleep since you'll be busy chasing pants. HAHA. the guys would be chasing skirts while you can do the chasing of pa nts. HAHA/. so many so little time. hehe;D

Friday, July 13, 2007 10:56 PM

meet the love of my life.

8:14 PM

13th july 2007

Day ninety one.

they said a picture says a thousand words. i'll let them do the talking. but since my story wont be told the same way as i want it to be, i'll tell my part of the story;D

i went out to the city once again. initially it was only the three of us, me michelle and shinyun but we met up with others on our way. i met ivan at the city busport at 11am before michelle and shinyun came. somehow, poor ivan came so early on shayma's stupid instructions. we decided to abduct him along with us to harbour front for shopping before the 'vain' mr shayma came.

we had lunch at taka (my favourite jap place for a cheap yet delicious lunch) i took tempura udon while the rest had something different. finally the 'vain' mr shayma and maxwin came after two whole hours of waiting for them. thank goodness we actually dragged ivan along with us if not the poor guy would just bored himself out waiting at the city busport. that guy actually spent like 30 minutes bathing- which is UNUSUAL for a guy and thats not counting the time the takes admiring himself in the mirror. gosh;D dress up so handsome to impress the ladies NOT a good thing if youre making them wait for you as well.

thats your 'handsome' guy the one who takes like an hour and more admiring himself in the mirrors. dont you think he looks just stunning for the ladies?

he still owes me my sashimi meal for making us wait. i want my salmon and tuna and wasabi thank you!

the table was packed with seven people all cramped into a four seater table. and he lied!!! he said he couldnt eat and yet he did! >>>

we went our separate ways. i felt cold after we stepped out of the restaurant. maxwin lent me his blue scarf- i look good in it though it was so furry and thick, it made me look like a was wearing a neck cast.

HAHA. something caught our eye as we walked past it. we took a look into it... saw that? i should take videos for you guys back home. no wait- there's another one at northbridge. the two dollars peek show. imagine this just two bucks and you get to see 'that'. unfortunately, they didnt state the time limit you get to view such fantasies. maybe a miniute or two? who cares, i have mine to look at already.

oh and yeah;D i kinda got a great picture of that. because the neon lights are in sequence of the skirt being lifted up. and ive got the shot where it was way up. woohoo. my good phototaking skills.

i know its HOT thats why i aint going in. because im too HOT already. i dont want to burn myself. HAHA.

we went our separate ways. shayma, ivan maxwin and sarah went to catch a movie- transformers while the rest of us went shopping. and the fact is that those bunch of guys JUST went to see harry potter the day before AGGH. and i havent watched it yet. this is so unfair. haha;D oh wells.

we spent like the rest of the afternoon looking for michelle's stuff. her speedo brand swimcap. seriously, whenever i heard the word speedo, i think of swimming trunks. i guess ive been watching too much olympic games swimming-guys.

HAHA.

though its funny since here in perth- the guys dont wear trunks, they wear boardshorts- which i agree is totally HOTT. not kidding. the dropdown waist hipster kind,WOOHOO. okay rights- im not in my right kind of mind.

we went into city beach to find her stuff. (your typical kind of roxy, billabong, quilksilver type) and we kinda ended up with loads of pictures taken from us wearing sunglasses.

anyone wants to neck me? HAHA just kidding. you'll just ruin my tattoo;D

i got a HOTattoo too! dont you agree it was great? me and michelle gamely went to get it- dont worry. its temporary only.

we went around thw city trying to search for two impossible stuff toys. banana in pyjamas! my gosh. that was centuries ago. like i didnt even used to like any of them. i only have the love for sesame street when i was six. especially big bird HAHA.

ABC the toys store where all the kids go to. and guess who went into it? us. not kidding. seventeen year olds visiting a shop like this. my gosh. i have no face already.

we found them. BANANA IN PYJAMAS there sitting on the shelves. we took one, then we just remember, they have to come together. since its called B1 AND B2 for a reason. all the more we had to get both of them. and somehow, they always make B2 smaller than B1. i thought they were twins? i guess B2 is the younger one then. aggh who cares. i dont like their stripped pyjamas at all.

shin yun wants to BE THAT PRINCESS. but the book was really nice. all the neat facts on how to be a princess. i seriously think that if i were to take a princess like test- i wont even score past a twenty. thats bad. i have to be more girly.

we browsed through other books and we came across mr bean's holiday to france. we all had a great laugh so much so that the two girls by the side waiting for their mum kept laughing at us too. it was hilarious. like this. according to bean himself- this is how you ask for someone you want.

point using your index at the thing you want
point with the same finger at yourself
and SMILE

MY GOSH. we all burst out laughing real badly. michelle walked out of the shop with the two bananas in her carrier bag. thank goodness we werent carrying that bag- i would have lost my face. HAHA. of all places the ABC shop. HAHA.

we met celestina later on and we did the same thing to her. dragged her to city beach to get her tattoo done up with shinyun this time since she escaped the last.

we for a drink at utopia. bubble tea again. i had my passionfruit but this time round. all thanks to mummy. she ordered some weird sago to go along with it. stating it was chocolate. cmon, dont fool me. i know what tastes like chocolate and what doesnt. i have a love for my chocolates. oh please.

even when i gave her to taste one. 'ewwww, whats with the rubber taste?' good. im glad that you know. its no where near my chocolate taste either.

i think i totally suck at black eyeliner. someone i look real old in them. sheesh. i should just go along with mum's idea to stick with neon colours. does that come out of my own paycheck?

Thursday, July 12, 2007 9:35 PM

12th july 2007
Day ninety.

it's time for a celebration! four whole days plus my weekend all spent on studying and mugging like a true born nerd. im glad i got out of it. i wouldnt want to stay as a complete nerd.

the last four days were crazy. i was practically competing against time to finish studying everything. just four months of studying and we had a whole lot of work to study. stupid april start. who's bright idea was for me to study for april. thats pure sucide. real sucide. im dying from all the workload and im practically turning into a nerd. aggh;D i have no life but studying now. yikes!

im just glad its all over now. im going for a celebration soon! im over the moon. well not literally since that would be a death-defying stunt which would be stupid considering my near death encounter. HAHA.

im just happy i dont have to hide back in my room after dinner studying my ass off just like any april start student would. i wont have to sleep late hours anymore with the fear that i havent finished studying everything. i wont have to wake up THAT EARLY anymore! woohoo. i love the start of my holidays. other than the fact that i cant get my ass out of the country while my friends can to go back home just FOR ONE BLOODLY WEEK. sheesh. haha;D but im just glad that i HAVE HER. my sister woohoo. at least my weekends to church aint going to be boring anymore. i have someone to hug when it comes to peace giving! yippee. i finally have her to follow me to the city everytime i get an urge to go out and play. HAHA. imagine all the shopping trips we'll have. ooooo love it!

i feel weird not having anything else to study this night. no more exams to prepare for the next day. you feel just so free. i helped wash the dishes with my sister tonight. well, i hadnt had anything to do in my room either. i laid down on my bed thinking of what next to do. i was bored. not having anything to study feels weird. you see! i told you i have gone to a complete nerd! i need a trip out to the city soon! jason and selina called us out to watch a movie with them, we had a hard time agreeing with the guy that corpse bride was way better than that darn cat movie he got that both of us were totally clueless on. we settled on the corpse bride. it was two against one. boo hoo!

the movie was nice. i still think all the characters are all annorexic. look at how frail their bodies were, its just like sticks. like those kind of pocky sticks you use to eat. my gosh, i love my chocolate flavoured ones.

i have a new current form of addiction. well its not growing that strongly as my CHOCOLATES. but yeah;D as jason calls it. DIGIMON. the movie was nice but we only watched half of it. because they had to turn in at half past eight. i went back to my room turned on my computer, and guess who i saw online. ME myself and I. haha;D

okay that was pretty lame. someone take me out on a date soon! harry is waiting for me at the cinemas!

Wednesday, July 11, 2007 8:04 PM

11th july 2007
Day eighty nine.

major exams. chemistry and applicable maths. a whole day's of studies and stress. i survived the night before, sleeping only a mere 5 hours after cramping my head with all of chemistry stuff. i havent studied the remaining 5 chapters for chemistry. im officially dead. i cant sit for an exam of which i havent studied yet.

everyone met up in the library before the papers started. applicable maths first. someone looked confident. shayma was there teasing me at my brain size. well, im short but at least my brain isnt occupied by sick nonsensical stuff like you have in yours. haha;D mine is full of facts and information. yours is the total opposite. full of porn. daddy reminded me once again on our bet. i lose and i owe him a trip with him to the city footing all the expenses. i win and it'll be in my favour. so far, ive not been confident for either.

after applicable maths paper, daddy started to pull out all of his hair. though his head had not much hair on it either. just a bunch of black scrubs. HAHA. kidding. he just realised why he couldnt get his graph drawn throughout the whole maths paper when i showed him my graph on the calulator after the exams. HA you could see his eyes pop out just then. shocked to see that a small midget my size could actually get the graph. well believe it. it took me the last 10 minutes to figure out that question too.

we went to the library to study for chemistry. well its more like 'study' since we decided to take a break first before we commenced on our studies again. the whole row of computers were taken up by us. and he was mean. he took my books and placed them on the upper shelf, knowing for the very fact that i couldnt reach them because of my height. i couldnt. he went outside. i pulled faqih to help me get them. instead of being a nice gentleman which he wasnt at all since he only took the books and placed them on another shelf at the same height level. i had to get them myself since both guys were equally bad.

daddy came back to check on the books.

shocked, that the books were now missing, he went to check it out with faqih.

-points to amanda-

'there its with her.'

at this point daddy's reaction was super funny.

with one finger pointing at my books, he looked down in amazement and looked up again repeatedly at the shelf and in still shock that i could even manage to get my own books.

'how did you get them?'

'i jumped'

'since NO ONE wanted to take them down for me'

i poked faqih at his sides once again for sliding with daddy.

i didnt go online for long either, there was no mail. and did i mention- there's no bloodly msn or friendster to check up on. i went back to studying.

soon after, daddy joined me by my table. stating the reason that 'he wanted to study' WOW. i didnt take that reason in. but anyway, i couldnt push him off either. he looked so serious when it came to studying chemistry. never disturb a chemistry genius from his frame of mind. haha;D

so far our bet has been onesided. i'll beat his ass at applicable maths and he'll beat mine at chemistry. so far, its been this case other than the last maths test where he beat my ass which totally sucks. im going to work harder. that maths spot is mine. move off.

6:35 PM

10th july 2007
Day eighty eight.

my life just hung by that stream of thread. that's how thin my chances were. i was lucky enough to escape this once. but life may not be that 'kind' on me anymore. in any way, i thank my lucky stars up there for watching over me. i still want to come back home. at least even to see everyone one last time.

this incident has shown me how short life has been for all those who dont cherish it enough. it happened on the 10th july 2007 at approximately 1.41pm. it didnt have to happen at all if not for the whole detour that the bus had to take because of the plumbing. the bus that i was on tried to make a right turn into a avennue before a car came intersecting it on the narrow road. there was a huge collision. the bus just ramped the small white car into the brick wall of a neighbouring house. the front bumper of the car went straight in. the driver of the car staggered out unhurt but her face shocked and legs trembling. no one wanted it to happen. the rest of us went in for a jerk bump from the impact of the collision. there were only the three of us, all kids. the bus driver got out immediately and went to check on the other driver. everyone from the nearby house came rushing out from the sound of the collision. soon after, they brought out a chair and a glass of water for the other driver. she just sat there, still trembling from the impact. it was almost a near death experience for everyone especially her. unscathed and unharmed, her emotions ran high.

the two other passengers in the bus took out their phones to call their parents to tell them they were alright and that they were going to run late. i just sat there, with my headphones still blasting music into my ears. i remembered. i didnt have anyone to call at all.

after our details got taken down for further investigations, the bus left leaving me all alone in a place i have no whereabouts to. the rest had a lift home somehow. everyone just disappeared except for the memebers of the family still trying to calm the lady down. children rushing in and out of the house. the whole scene was still in a state of chaos. there i was standing by the street stand, unfamiliar sights and houses around me. i took out my phone.

i dialed the first number that came to mind. my mum's handphone. wishing that she'll pick it up so at least i could hear her voice. her comfort that always made me feel at ease even at times like this. she didnt answer. the dial tone just kept ringing. no one picked up from the other side. i let it ring on for another 2 mintues. i called the house next hoping that at least my sister would have picked it up, i needed to tell her that i was going to be late home and that i couldnt buy her stuff for her then. after another 2 minutes of waiting, someone picked up. it was her. my gosh, i would have hugged myself then. the last call i made was to my aunt to let her i was fine and that i needed a lift home. 30 minutes. that was what she told me.

those 30 mintues were the longest wait of my life. i was emotionally just shocked by the crash. i needed someone to hold me close to tell me everything was going to be alright. i needed someone to tell me just then that i was lucky to have escaped unhurt. my legs were still trembling hard. i needed to sit down. the afternoon sun wasnt merciful at all. i sat out in the open on the grass, suntanning if you must, but i was trying to make myself obvious. the sun was so hot it felt like it burned through your jeans. i felt like i was running a fever. another 20 mintues more. time wasnt flying as fast as i expected.

imagine this. you know how someone's curses can actually have an effect on your life? well, i do admit at that point i was pondering over jason's crude remarks. well, if he really wanted me to die, i just had this opportunity that just merely missed taking my life with it. now, im just glad i got to live another day longer, to see the sun rise yet another day more.

i lost hours for studying because of this whole accident. i was still shaken even after i came home. emotionally shaken. i didnt speak much. i kept to myself when my sister asked what happened. i didnt want to recall on anything. after lunch i went back to studying. ive lost too much time. not on a day when i had to study for two tests. and two majors at that, applicable maths and chemistry. i was putting pressure on myself to study hard. it was the kind of pressure that i couldnt handle for this once.

i couldnt study at all. i kept seeing scenes of the whole accident. i was panicking and trembling all at the same time. i was desperate for time. i needed time to stop for me. not even past the second page of the chemistry book. i broke down. i couldnt take it in.

i took a bath to wipe my tears away. crying in the showers seemed so naturally when you dont even feel any teardrop against your skin as they roll down your cheeks. a hot bath against the cold damp tears.

i couldnt return to studying. i was drained out. mentally drained and tired from the previous exam economics. charmaine told me to sleep instead. i slept till dinner than i woke up as jason barged right in.

the whole night was spent on maths and half of chemistry. i couldnt stay up anymore. my initial plan was to sleep at ten and wake at three to study till 645am. but i didnt sleep by then. all because of charmaine and her great plan of trying to set up the printer. somehow the damm machine didnt feel like working then, so we had a great 'party' of people coming into our room trying to configure it. i wasted another one hour trying to help her set it up since the last we managed to. we gave up- it didnt want to obey us today.

if there was a worst day in my life. this was one of those days. no kidding. other than my near death experience, i had to struggle with the debt of hours that i had for studying chemistry and maths. the pressure just all built up within. now, im just glad everything is over.

Monday, July 09, 2007 9:46 PM

9th july 2007
Day eighty seven.

the dutchess has arrived. she stepped on our shores a little slightly later than usual, all thanks to the fact that she didnt have her empires around guilding her. (she went to the australian passport line instead of international passports) well. not saying she couldnt, but the fact that she only realised it at the last moment. she was due to arrive at 1355 and she only came out of the arrival gates at 245. that was almost an hours long wait for her. a true born dutchess right from the start.

she takes the longest to dress and doll up
dinner times for her are the longest ( oh did i mention, she eats three table spoons of rice while i eat two bowls of rice and i still finish mine faster)
bath times are longest ( never bathe after her- she ends up admiring herself in the mirror)

it was really a wonderful sight when i first spotted the petite girl with a backpack that overweighed her own self image along with almost three hand luggages. and no way are those luggages small. its amazing she never managed to drag all of her memories over to perth. a whopping 25 kg luggage without taking into account all her hand luggages.

we got back home. i left her to unpack while i studied for accounts. yes, while the whole of australia kids has a study break of two weeks. we dont. while they all get to play outside and shop! we dont. life is unfair. but like they said. YOU GUYS CAME LATER. oh wells. life is still unfair in my context.

did you see the amount she unpack. gosh. a real born dutchess. all her costmetics, her clothes, her soft toys. my gosh. as though this trip here for studies was a chalet trip. i didnt even bring any costmetics over unless you consider a lip balm for my lips. my gosh. i dont even wear makeup at all. ( she's going to influence me a great good deal) did i mention her clothes. WOOHOO. i love having a sister. now thats the best part other than the catfights ( but hey. those were good memories too- it helps us practice our vocals) the clothes! the even best part here is the fact that your sister is almost the same size as you. so everything she owns is MINE. mine. mine. mine.

I CANT BELIEVE I WAITED 4 WHOLE MONTHS TO HAVE COMPANY. oh wells. im just glad i have her now! other than school where i spend almost the whole day studying, talking and crapping with my friends, i hardly talk at home. home is basically a place to snuggle back into your own room and talk to friends ONLINE. thats the difference. online- you cant hear them. now that she's here. i finally get to talk to someone at night. well yeah. ( other than the fact we nearly got busted for talking too loudly. ) cmon- in my excitement i tend to talk a lot and aloud. not my fault. i was blessed with a big mouth.

monday.

her first day here in perth was bad in her context. though i thought it was reasonable. be thankful once again, that you have sun. of all days. you had the sun shining down. when it comes to the times it rains and there are hailstorms out of nowhere- start praying.

she said it was cold. well, the mornings werent that cold, other than the fact that she had her first try out at blowing out mist first hand. i lent her my jacket and gloves. she desperately sucks when it comes to cold.

she followed me to school today. i had my accounts term exams. the rest of the family went out so she had no choice but to tag along. she said i was mean for making her wait up for me till i was done in exactly two hours and 10 mintues. it wasnt my fault. i wished i hadnt sat for the papers either. it was a killer.

after the exams, i met her back in the library before we set off again for carousel for lunch. we ate kebabs. ( okay i think im addicted to it) she didnt like it though. i cant believe she didnt. man! that's good food she's missing out. she left a quarter of her share untouched. i eat hers. boy, i think im a gabbage bin for her.

we went shopping for her basic items eventhough i had exams the next day. it was really cool. i enjoyed the trip and totally forgot about econs.

and now. im still mugging my ass off for econs. as daddy sat. i ought to pass well for econs since i'll lose to him in appl maths and chemistry. TAKE ME OUT SOON. because youre definately going to win it. i dont mind a trip out too!

Saturday, July 07, 2007 3:49 PM

charmaine's coming in just two days time. okay wait. its just tommorrow. HAHA. for what seemed like an eternity while i tried to struggle in my firstfew months here. she's finally come. haha;D i am looking forward to her stay here with me though it wasnt as much of a yearning as compared to then.

praise the lord. another person to annoy. shit. i just remembered. if its charmaine, its the other way around. but for sharon's case. im the big bully. HAHA. man i miss all my sisters loads. lets see. im back to sleeping with my charmaine. for 14 years of my life. it was with her and the other two years was with sharon. HA. i cant say how much i miss our late night chats till one of us just dozed off to sleep putting the other person off because no one is listening to them HAHA.

the disadvantage of having her over.

i have to clean out my closet and drawers that once occupied her space.
there goes all queensize bed, since there's going to be another body beside me (though i wont mind at all since it's someone i can hug for warmth though i seriously think it's going to be the other way around.
i have to start counting all my chocolates and start hiding them. the last thing i want is to get home and see my eyecandies have all gone into the stomach of another being instead of mine. she can buy her own chocolates HAHA.
im taking the bed to study on. you can have wthe table. its cold on the surface at night so writing on the table is chilly.
im taking the upper drawer. you can take the lower one.

there's still a long list to go. i havent really thought of them yet. HAHA. soon very soon.

i better say my penance for writing all this down. but charmaine im really looking forward to your coming over! HAHA. wheeee. finally a shopping buddy. i shall try to grow and love shopping with you. I WILL TRY. haha;D but please let me do all the decision making for you before you drag me around once more trying to make up your mind.

1:57 PM

7th june 2007
Day eighty five.

im turning into a total complete nerd, one that mugs the whole day in and out. no kidding. its that bad. well i have to. i spent like almost 20 hours of my day in my room studying. a few hours off for eating my meals, washing the dishes and others with the exceptions of toilet breaks. you know how pandas sleep almost three quarters of a day. im beginning to act like one. HAHA.

this is how a day of mugging would appear in amanda's life.

730- the phone alarm rings. acjc mass orientation dance song. well as usual i didnt wake up immediately after that. gosh, it was such a fine temperature to sleep in. i did. HAHA. i put it back on snooze mood and caught another forty winks till 750. it wasnt too bad. i arranged to have my breakfast by 830 anyway.

845-i was done with morning tea. made myself a hot milo drink and there was fried dough sticks for tea. washed up the dishes and all. went back to the comforts of my room. there was where all the mugging begins.

till 1045- two solid hours of memoing economics. it was a real killer then. i nearly died. my brain cells are all fried right now. really crazy. the chocolates on my table tempted me again as usual. but i didnt take any piece.

i got bored from studying econs and decided to take a break. i started to pace about the room feeling all so restless. there wasnt anything much to do except to study but i didnt want to. i took out my guitar and totally wrecked the room's quiet ambience. HAHA. take that.

lunch was at 1145. i didnt have to cook this time round. grandma did the cooking. i did the eating. HAHA.

back to more econs till i finish everything. i plan to finish off my chemistry too by tmr. i'll leave accounts for tmr.

and i do study hard. there's a balance in my life. i study real hard and play damm hard. (if you consider blogging and online messaging after hours) HAHA.

im a good girl;D smirks.

Friday, July 06, 2007 11:10 PM

6th june 2007
Day eighty four.

you know how you study biology in order to understand on how the human body works. well, im doing my own research study on how guys like darryl think. (if youre reading this, be HONOURED. this blog entry is for you!)

three thinking processes would have gone through darryl's mind once he chances upon this blog.

wow! midget actually got a blog to start off with!
(sees that picture) you know what? i think i really should have bluetoothed all the available devices your picture.
i am a virgin.

i guess most of you guys would have been open-eyed on that last point. no kidding. he actually said it out loud ( well to me it sounded loud even under library constraints) YEAH to my question. and there wasnt like a second of pause to think of what he was actually answering to me. it took me 2 seconds to get that my question sounded sick to begin with.

it was after chemistry classes. shayma had his elacs classes while me and darryl hadnt got classes on. before shayma left for class- those two were glued to the monitor screen of a computer browsing through usb ports and webcams on sale. GUYs and their gadgets. the whole time i was there- wow. i couldnt even understand what everything they were talking about. all i heard were **** this is so bloodly expensive or hey they cheated us and uhhuh. someone made the sign too HAHA.

it was kind of surprising since one would usually expect darryl to be at one of the screens watching movies online during breaks. but today. he ACTUALLY decided to study with me. not bad- the powers of a midget. HAHA. and studying with him is a bad idea right from the start. dammit. i should have listened to my conscience. dont study with darryl! ahah.

those two hours were really funny. i dont get how a guy can be so obsessed over his looks that he even says i keep looking at him. gosh. cant he see the direction im looking at. its the guy behind him i was looking at. HAHA. and darryl face it youre not hot. haha and you actually think youre that hot for me to look at you. i have eyes for better guys out there. HAHA.

he cant use the liquid paper for nuts. what did you call it again? white blotter or something? squeezed out too much of the liquid that he had to wait for it to dry- the only good outcome of that wait was he got to disturb me with this conversation.

(takes out phone to check for messages)

'hey midget i bet you dont have any sms right now.'

'yeah i dont.'

... ...

'hey what network are you using?'

'virgin mobile why?'

'oh cool/ i could actually sms you for free.'

'OH YOURE A VIRGIN TOO?'

'YEAH'

oh gosh. at this point. i was laughing so much at the library. that even the lady by the side with her headphones blasting out music could hear my overwhelming laughter. it took the both of us to figure that the question wasnt really what we meant to ask or answer.

after darryl left for his maths test at 12 of which he just spent the last hour disturbing me and me disturbing him ( we timed him for every page done. i took a nap at the desk till lunch hour. and i overslept. AGGH. by 15 mins! it was the same as this morning. opps i know i know. i should have set on two alarms and i switched off my earlier one on purpose. gosh i was so tired i didnt feel like waking up but hey i managed to get ready and set breakfast without packing my lunch by the same time i set off for school. not a bad feat. let's try it out again. im just kidding. that's just sucide.

i went to the canteen and bought lunch there. wow. shayma and trina joined us today. the canteen sounds really quiet with the missing feb start students. really noise free other than the occasion noises and laughter of our group. shayma started the whole topic and why guys do that. input input. haha. i shallnt elaborate but hey most of our GIRL'S misconceptions were all solved from our boisterious laughter and GREAT facts from piggy. HAHA.

Thursday, July 05, 2007 7:32 PM

5th june 2007
Day eighty three.

(runs to the door and BANGS) does it twice. thrice. and many more times till i fall. EXAMS ARE JUST A WEEKS AWAY. okay forget that. it's just 3 days away. that's like only half a week. im screwed i really am.

thursday and im only half way through my stuffs. i have only got the weekend to kick my butt to start all revision soon. i did but its not enough. just one more week and im free. one more week of endless studying with little sleep ( okay that's not the case since i always seem to doze off while reading chem which sucks) im really trying NOT to study on the bed anymore. and chocolates somehow dont work their effect on me. im screwed. ive tried to eat chocolates like repeatedly only to doze off seconds later after it melts completely. i should switch to coffee soon. maybe it might help poor sleepy me.

thursday.

john( the accounts lecturer) just dumped on us a whole bunch of theory notes and exam papers for us to work on. and yes, how am i to study accounts this weekend. i only plan to look through all my work. thats all. no such thing as doing any worksheets. have you like seen the questions in the papers. OMG. i want to cry already. well, almost everyone else in the class wanted to. im screwed and shit scared of this coming exam.

econs was once again a much dreaded session in the late afternoon. and it works even worst after you just ate a full meal only to feel sleepy because digestion takes place in your tummy and your brain doesnt work that great when that process happens. okay, i didnt doze off yet. I WAS JUST ABOUT TO. just not yet. he went through why nations had to trade. for econs- ive only just about finished two chapters of my work when im stucked with almost 10 more to go.

english attendance was really bad today. a bad record. we had only 4 people out of the total 9. well hey, we super small sized the class from a whooping 16 till the 9 we had right now after one by one everyone just left class. by 3.15 ( class starts then) there were only the three of us and john. it was bad. he couldnt do anything but ask us to finsish up on our research topics. well we did ours and handed them in already to have them marked and returned back to us. ive got my usual mark as john said and he said i should be pleased with it. i was. darryl was joking seriously. he wanted me to help him with his assignments. he's crazy. for a simple girl like me, my english isnt that good at all.

we ended up playing hangman throughout the session till 4.15pm. that was the earliest john could let us leave due to college restrictions. he ended up playing with us hangman also on the whiteboard. we each took turns to write something. darryl kept choosing words from the classroom interiors. like 'window' or 'heater'. he couldnt spell for nuts thats why all his guess were at most 10 words long. he was 'nice' his hangman had eyes, a nose, a mouth and two ears to go along with it before we died. joy was even more so amusing. she kept making us guess her words before she forgot to add in two syllabus. now that makes a whole lot of difference. the couldnt stand me either. because i made them guess it was 'punchholder' when instead the right term was 'holdpuncher'

what's the difference? i asked.

now amanda, john looked at me with great concern.

ler stap?

huh? what's that? is that a person?

oh gosh. amanda! its stapler.

you cant just change the back and the front of the words.

OHHHHH. (bursts out laughing)

john kept laughing. he thinks we cant play hangman for nuts. one changes the whole meaning of the words, the other loses a few syllabus and the other only gives a maximum of 5 letter words.

i spent my bus trip back home studying econs. i have to. ive got so much to catch up with. my weekend isnt going to be free either with all the stuffs i have to get into that small pea brain of mine.

ps: i cant believe it took me so long to get what 'tissue' meant. sheesh. i feel so WOLS. tissue dropping out at the wrong places. gosh. who came up with that before chemistry classes started the day before on wednesday? but, it was a good perk up before classes started in the late evening.

Tuesday, July 03, 2007 7:44 PM

3rd june 2007
Day eighty one.

courtesy of picture by darryl after he allegedly tried to send it through bluetooth to all the anoym people in his list of available devices. i had to strangle him at this point.

Monday, July 02, 2007 7:38 PM

2nd july 2007
Day eighty.

i just realised i'll be soon reaching my hundred days here in Perth since i landed myself in these shores on the 14th april. Day eighty six and charmaine's arriving soon. Day eighty seven- ninety i'll be sitting for my college mid terms. NOT good. my life is full of numbers everyday. somehow you just cant escape the fact that your days are numbered. that's why i plan to spend everyday of my life here being happy and staying in contact with the ones i love because you'll never know what might happen. HAHA.

thunderstorm. from today onwards the weather forecast news is on the top of my things to do list. heavy showers all day with lightning on certain occasions. max temperatue of 18 and a min temperature of 8. gosh, every single more here and the temperature here keeps going lower. the winds kept howling today. the trees kept swaying in the strong winds- so much so it appeared as though the branches were going to break soon. (im praying that one of the branches of the big tall trees would break soon) imagine that. it was so cold out there with the winds blowing straight at your face. it felt like the winds were tearing apart your mouth as you face it.

im running a marathon against winter. everyday when i walk the lonely road home, i wave to my competitor up above. it'll be gray all over with the great adrenaline of the strong winds. it's not a competition of who's the winner and all. if it was, i'll gladly give the spot to it. but what im fighting for isnt the prize at the end of the road i walk. it's the chance to escape its clutches. that small marginal chance that i might have if i just walked a little faster home. that way, it'll never catch up with me. i pray everytime on my walks back home that it wouldnt start before i touched home base.

i had my maths and chemistry test today. maths was bad (i arrived to the test late by 5 mintues and hadnt had enough time to complete the last question so i sacrificed 7 marks) the test was upon 50 and 7 makrks aint no small sacrifice. it was a big one that i foolishly took. my bet with daddy fell through- HE BEAT ME IN MATHS. gosh! today aint my day at all. there goes my treat from him and a treat for me. i shouldnt have been so stupid as to bet that with him. ( dont worry mummy- you wont have to walk around the school compounds in a bikini- but still DAMMIT. i wanted to see daddy parade around the school in his boxers.)

there goes my chance HAHA. HE WON ME BY JUST A MERE FEW MARKS. the world is seriously falling apart. no way! i wont give in to him, maybe i would to someone else but not him.

we bet again. this time it was chemistry. i tell you, this bet is a total sucide. daddy's really good in his chemistry no kidding- he did really well in his o levels and here i am- a mere chemistry student betting against him on the next recent chemistry test. this really bothers me as to how smart i really am.

someone really has something against the green converse shoes im wearing. why? just because its green? (i know sijia would say 'like duh!' she practically hates my guts for wearing so much green on myself- and yes i dont look like a christmas tree that's why i dont wear red with green) nope, that wasnt his reason for stepping on my shoes. it's the person wearing them. nice. that's me you fool.

i think my shoes are a weather forecast on its own. i need not have to rely on the news forecast already. somehow every single time i wear that pair out, it rains. that im not kidding. EVERY SINGLE TIME. it has to. dont ask me why. i can proof that. whenever i wear my slippers/tongs or other pair of shoes out, it doesnt rain at all.

the rains dont like my green shoes either.

my top two eyecandies for this week are:

books, textbooks, homework and references
CHOCOLATE

somehow, the both of them work really well together. i dozed off a couple of times while studying on the bed. not a good spot. the bed. really tempting when you lie down. okay, i learnt my mistake. it's the back to the table and chair now. but the chocolate jar is still staying with me. HA. no one is going to steal it away not even you charmaine while youre here. BLEAH.

im a complete nerd right now. psst. dont disturb. amanda's in full studying mode. shoo... youre not supposed to be blogging. (aggh. youre not supposed to find out)

Sunday, July 01, 2007 1:23 PM

Just let me say how much I love You

Let me speak of Your mercy and grace

Just let me live in a shadow of Your beauty

Let me see You face to face

And the earth will shake as Your Word goes forth

And the heavens will tremble and fall

But let me say how much I love You

Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend

Just let me hear Your finest whispers

As You gently call my name

And let me see Your power and Your glory

Let me feel Your spirit's flame

Let me find You in the desert

Till this sand is holy ground

And I am found completely surrendered

To You my Lord and Friend

So let me say how much I love You

With all my heart I long for You

For I am caught in this passion of knowing

This endless love I've found in You

And the depth of grace, the forgiveness found

To be called a child of God

Just makes me say how much I love You

Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend (x2)

Just makes me say how much I love You

Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend